#thedayyouleft

[incrdbloct]

Lost Home

These past 4 years has been a hell of a ride. An awkward, weird, crazy and unusual love we once had. There was a lot of misunderstandings, insecurities, wronged expectations and of course; honest affections, and unconditional love.

I thought the ride we had would never have an ending. Cause when it bent, it went straight again with a little help of love. I thought the ride was meant for you and me. But it turns out we realized that we have different paths and sadly, we got to separate and start our own ride.. Leaving our traces behind.

You were the realest thing I’ve ever had. The one who set a whole new adventure for me, and most of my ‘first times’.

I know we grew out of love. I know that for the past 8 months I only held on to the idea of you inside my head, instead of you.

And in time, I finally watch someone I ever loved dearly become a ghost before my eyes. You, had become a stranger for me. And the man I kept in my head was the ghost of you, the old you.

It’s been an honor to have you in this short infinity. I’ll see you when I see you.

[fanzonedaf]

I remember the day you left

I remember the day you left, I remember how it felt, how your absence strangled me. I remember how it felt like I was leaving too, how my body became just a hollow recipient. I remember how cold it was. I remember how you said you loved me, And kissed my forehead gently. I remember how you said it was for the best, because we couldn't do this anymore. I remember how I nodded, tears rushing down my cheeks. I remember how I wanted to scream instead I can! I can! I can! I remember how I would have rather break my neck than nod at you. I remember the day you left, And how I couldn't stop you. I remember you. I just can't remember me.

[oiesoueudenovo]

August 10, 2014

one year ago, about 11:21 at night you told me that you were going to bed. I said I loved you, and you answered "me too".Right there my heart started to crack. I didnt do anything wrong, why were you so cold? I told you that you didnt love me anymore. You didnt denied it. You asked me what else did I think. I said nothing. But it wasnt true. I knew it was over, I knew it, but it was so late, maybe you would change your mind the day after. You said that there was another girl. I didnt cried. I couldnt breath, I couldnt think, I couldnt talk, I was shivering like it was so cold outside, and it wasnt. I was yelling inside so hard. I never pictured my life without you. Without your texts and all that cute bullshit. I was so rude to you. I called you all the names that I thought of. I send you a million of voice messages crying, calling your name and telling you to give us one more shot. You didnt even hesite. You didnt answered my calls cuz it was "too late at night". You didnt give a shit about me. you didnt give a fuck at all.I didnt sleep, I didnt go to school. I went to have lunch with my friends. on the way back I finally cried like everything around me wasnt even there. I cried so much. I couldnt talk. I stuttered and sobbed like a little baby. Today, is August 10th of 2015 and I still remember every little detail of that night and all the others nights that followed that. Thank you so much for making me never wanting to give love again. Because for the only man that I ever did, he just threw it away like an object he no longer needed. And guess what, my heart isnt and fucking object, it had feelings in there. Fuck you.