APOLLO 6/18/17 💔💔
How can I ever love again. Why do I feel like no one can replace you? After everything you have done! All the hurt I have been through. I took you for you. When people said you were crazy I didn't care you were my crazy. When people said you can't and couldn't love will fuck that. I always accepted you for you. Your weird was my weird. It was suppose to be me and you against the world. They called you a fuck up, but you were my king. I never once thought that you were. I knew you would rise to greatness. I just thought I would be there when it happened. If I'm not mistaken the last thing I said was your going to be nothing. I called your music shit. I did it out of hate. What you were telling me. How you are already in a relationship. It happened so quick. It hurts so bad. It was not just the physical pain you inflicted, it was the mental part too. I get I fucked up in our relationship. I tried everything to make up for my fuck ups to. I accepting you beating me as I thought it was the right punishment. I did not do enough for the things you put me threw. I stayed threw it all because I loved you. I stayed because I believed in you. I did everything in my power to make you love me. I tried and gave you my all. I never thought someone I loved so much would hurt me as much as you do. I can't bare to be in my own town anymore. These streets are the streets I rode and walked with you. These streets are the streets we made love in. We'd park the car and fuck then talk all night. Everywhere reminds me of you. The beach is the place I find the most comfort in, but it is hard when all I can think about is being there with you. I will not love again the way I loved you. I will not give myself to someone so deeply the way I gave you. I will never lay in another mans arms and feel loved like the love you gave me. Will I ever feel the butterflies that filled up my stomach when we kissed!? The pain in my heart and chest I wish could just go on in life and forget. Though the pain you have cause there was so much beauty and laughter. I hate what you did. You will always be my sun and all my stars. The death of Zero💔😭