2018: A Year in Review
I want you to be your light
Honestly, I don’t even know how to begin. This year has been such a whirlwind. So many things have happened and I feel like February was just yesterday, and just like everyone else, my year has been a complete and utter mess of things.
I barely remember January. It was the point at which my decisions were becoming worse, I was suddenly losing huge amounts of sleep and pulling all-nighters every other day, only for all of th work to remain the next day.
February; the month my mum realised that my grades were dropping. My phone got stolen, and I had many family events which kind of made up for it, especially when I came home beyond stressed and we just played games and everyone laughed at the situation. I hosted a girl from Spain, which was a huge plot twist because I’m really bad at communication.
March has always been a month that I loved, people say its cause it’s my birth month, but I just like the vibes. College is really intense, especially Art, because I’m starting my final piece and all my other pieces hadn’t been finished.
April I really wasn’t getting any better with work. I was kind of drowning in my own piles of stuff, not the best logic. The artwork was reallyyy killing me.
In May, you could really ell that I was trying to shift into an exam mode. Unfortunately, I either didn’t have that or I couldn’t do it, because all though my walls were covered in notes, I still remained with an empty skull. With exams coming fast, it wasn’t the best mentality to have.
June, I am not even joking, but I reached a point where I was eating ice-cream at 3am for breakfast. I was totally losing the plot. The best thing was that exams were over, and I didn’t have to stress too much anymore. I finally started drawing in Art again.
July, I started driving!! I started taking lessons which I was really excited about, and I honestly felt like I was gonna do so bad with driving but it was going okay. And we finally reached the summer holidays! I waited so long for those, I was so excited for all the stuff I was gonna do.
August was really nice too. Just chilling in the summer, spent time in London, loads of barbecues, didn’t think too much about anything, even though there were things in the back of my mind. I just chose to ignore them. Half way through and I remember all the things I suddenly felt like I’d been running away from, aka my A levels.
September and I was back in College. I love September, because everything is really fresh and I love settling into classes while they’re new and all the learning is exciting. I missed the regularity that college gives in my life. I like routine. I made my mind up on trying to stay on top of all of my work, and so far it was going well.
October, I made the agreement with myself that I should always go to bed, even if I have work due. Sleep is more important than half trying to finish work. To be honest, this was one of the rare good decisions I made, because I realised that if I truly hadn’t finished and I didn’t turn work in, I could I always turn it in a little later, which my teachers were allowing because I had set the image that I do hand in homework most of the time. So I as pretty proud of myself. I hit the Jorja Smith concert which was wow, but I couldn’t help but feel a slight sadness, because that same day, my faves were in London and my friends were going to see them.
November was truly a blur, there was this one day that I’d been waiting for and then it came and I loved it. I finally applied to university, after having spent months on my application, waiting for it to be finally sent off.
And finally December, which I started my annual project, except I gave up not even half way into. Shockingly, I was accepted into university, which lifted a huge weight off me. I have to study hard now, my mocks are in a few weeks, and I want to do well this year coming.
Having looked through this year, my favourite thing has been all of the family time I’ve had. We constantly gathered, for nights out, parties, barbecues, holidays, and I love it so much. Family is always a constant for me and I hope that never changes. It makes me long for the summer, where all of my time was spent together with them, even with all the screaming and fighting.
Of course, there are a few things I want this year:
To make my parents proud
To be successful
To feel like I’m really doing okay.
I hope I fill 2019 much more brightly and with more photos.
- Nemothechocolatebrownie 💛
