#thehostkin

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mark had this sort of... cuddly puppy characteristic to him, that carried over to a lot of us. not everyone had it (yan, for one, they hated being touched without permission) but most other egos (especially dark, wilford, KOTS, and bim) were prone to it. i was too, actually, it's just that i was Also weird about touch because of. reasons. so i wouldn't always be open about it.

it's just very funny to me seeing people portray us in certain ways when my experiences are so startlingly different. did you know that darkiplier was a total cuddle bug who really loved being physically affectionate? he fucking hated people knowing that (which is why i'm telling all of you) so he would only let it show around certain people, but when he got the chance he was incredibly clingy. i can personally attest to that.

if he were here, he'd want to punch me for saying that. but he's not, and also he knows i'd hit him with a bat if he did. sorry, dear ||P

(i say this teasingly. mostly. our relationship was very weird and specific. don't worry about it too much.) - the host 🎙️ (youtubekin)

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i understand that different canons are different and not everyone was as lucky as me in this regard but it baffles sometimes me that people portray dark as abusive toward me. this is the man i willingly got into a fistfight with over pizza and would flirt with me in his pajama shorts and a suit jacket. i literally can't see him as anything more than a huge damn dork. - the host

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random memory but wilford used both she/her and he/him pronouns in my canon, i believe. gender was always wishy washy with her (as in he'd never give you the same answer twice if you asked) but she was a rare occurrence of an ego who went by she/her at all (which is probably why i remember it so distinctly).

disregarding that, i do miss him rather dearly. i wasn't as close to her as dark was but he was always such a big sweetheart to me and the others that it was kind of hard to not like her, if you could get past his flightiness.

hope you're well if you're out there, my friend. sending you well wishes, and plenty of pink heart emojis, with my brain 💖💕🩷💞💗 - the host 🎙️

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I like to give a knowing look to other Hosts. The one people who understand certain things give each other. Darkiplier making poor decisions? The look. Wilford and Bim at it again? The look. Others refusing to listen to you despite the fact you know what you are talking about? Cheers. /lh ~The Host, 👁️✒️🎙️

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It has been a while, so I thought I would check-in and potentially give some encouragement. My memories are hazy these days, an ebb and flow of mist and fog...I remember using herbs from Bim Trimmer's greenhouse for my teas. For those who are searching...you will find them and it will be all right. ~The Host, 👁️✒️🎙️

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any unus annus/ego kins are now officially under my protection. anyone who calls you factkin or makes fun of you now gets bonked with the squeaky hammer. take care of yourselves guys ♥️ - the host 🎙

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The Host is very annoyed with the fact that talking about one's self in the third person isn't socially acceptable. It makes shifts such as these much harder to manage around people who don't understand. - 🖋️

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i remeber some of the egos (*cough* WILFORD *cough*) used to call me cupcake bc of hostess cupcakes and honestly i still think that was rlly cute, i kinda miss that. or maybe it's more that i miss them. either way, i want someone to call me cupcake now. - the host 🎙 (youtubekin)