#themerged

[wilted3sunflowers]

quick regen for @themerged for their character

[playfuljester-a]

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Send one of the following for a starter where my muse;

🤡- Has just encountered their biggest fear! 

Something that haunted Spinel, a darkness lurking within the deepest parts of her mind. Her biggest fear wasn’t necessarily being abandoned, it wasn’t being thrown away, but her biggest fear was herself.

Things hadn’t gone well, she had not had a good day to begin with and the day continued to get worse and worse as some point during her day she saw herself. The pink gem really looked at herself and saw just how Twisted she had become. Rage filled her as she looked at the reflection and how imperfect it was. How Wrong it was. The anger seemed to infect her like a disease as she smashed the mirror, the glass, anything that showed her what she was. Of course it caused a ruckus and everyone had stared at her, some in fear, others in confusion.

That was far too much for her to see. While no one said a word, their stares let her know she was falling back into that Monster she saw herself as. That being Like This was just her falling back into that darkness the Garden had held her in. The darkness that cradled Spinel for years, always being there, a shadow that comforted her in the moments she lost herself.

Spinel Ran. Ran from everything, everyone that kept staring at her. Perhaps she was trying to run from that shadow, that darkness that was all too familiar to her. What the small gem didn’t realize was someone else being where she was going. Where was she going? Spinel had no idea, but she’d keep running until someone stopped her.

[domumgemma]

“Hey- Oh! Sorry, thought you were someone else.”

Who else could she be, Yellow normally was very easy to distinguish from others but then again maybe the other just new a Pearl that was also yellow and just looked at her color. Nothing to worry about, normally she would not put up with things like this but Yellow was in quite a good mood today, so she decided to help.

“It’s alright, did your Pearl run off ? or are you searching for some other gem?” 

[playfuljester-a]

@themerged​ Continued from Here

It felt like static, everything around her felt like it wasn’t really there. That there were colors and shapes around her form but she couldn’t make them out. The thoughts that infected her mind only spread and dig deeper into the depths of her mind. She felt like she was cracked, that there was something wrong with her, but regardless of how many times she checked her own gem, it was still the same, still Sickeningly Perfect. 

Everything had to be perfect because that’s what she was, a perfect cut, a perfect color. The standards of what she Should have been still lingered in the back of her mind no matter how many times the Diamonds and Steven would repeat that she was more than just what she was programmed to be. The gem had heard of ‘heartbreak’ and the lingering stares of those who had seen her made her feel like her heart was breaking even more than it already had been. Shattering the shards of something she tried to piece together. It was All Wrong.

When the other touched her, it became so much worse. Spinel’s eyes glossing over with a distant look as tears streamed down the side of her face, she let out a horrid scream. Grabbing onto her own gem as if she was protecting it, holding herself, she screamed as she was embraced. After a moment the shouting would stop and a fist would attempt to collide into the other. Everything felt like it was coming back, but it was fractured. Being brought somewhere, somewhere she didn’t know made the gem panic. With her eyes snapping over she looked at the other with Hatred, Anger, Fear, and Sadness pooling in the tears that made her eyes seem glossy and shine in the light that reflected off them.

Watching the other....gem(?) scream words out, it took a few moments for her to realize what she was doing. “Who, are you? Where am I?” The panic came back, and instead of doing as the other instructed she only felt herself falling back down after just coming back enough to realize what had happened.

[domumgemma]

👋

Send “👋” if you want to RP with me but have been too shy to approach.

No need to be shy! I don’t bite and would love to interact, my DMs are always open :3 

[allymoved15]

Best idea ever! ✨

Thanks! 

[playfuljester-a]

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* talk about your muse!

send 🐢 for a mental health headcanon

Spinel actually can be very ‘normal’. Her mental instability only stems from the fact she has abandonment issues so most of the time she can function just as she wants to. It only gets bad when someone points it out, or talks about leaving and never coming back. She may have fears of when other gems / people need to go for the night or the day but for the most part she learned to accept she can’t be around someone 24/7.

Long story short, she has Separation Anxiety, but for the most part she can keep it mostly under control after she had learned her lesson, post-movie.