OK, so, there’s something that's been on my mind a while now, and I felt it's time to get it out. Now, most of the stuff I post on tumblr is generally nerd-centered, so I'm sorry friends, but that will not be my topic of discussion today. Well, in a way it is. You'll understand farther on.
So, on to the topic, what's been on my mind lately is about bad self-confidence and learning to love yourself. It's a topic that's on a lot of minds, and something which I know many of the people I surround myself with struggle (which, in turn, is awful. All the people that I have gotten the privilege to know are all beautiful, intelligent and talented. A situation where the person themselves can’t see it is always heart-shearing). Today we constantly try to educate ourself, and try to unlearn the many bad habits society has forced into our minds, such as (but not limited to) what we should be like, how we should look, and so on. But the road is never easy, especially when it’s about yourself, and your view on yourself. It is as they say, you yourself are your worst critic.
And now I’m about to say something that a lot of people probably won’t expect: I don’t know how, or where in my road this happened, but I have, somewhere along the road, learned to love myself. And all throughout I’m starting to learn what that means.
I know I’m not perfect. But, in the end, no one is. My personal view is that humans are always filled with good things, and bad. Talents and flaws. And, to me, this is what makes us great. Flaws don’t have to be bad. We all have them, after all. But to own up to them, and accept them as a part of you, that’s the mark of something great, and leads you on the road to self-love.
I myself have moments of being a complete idiot.
I sometimes, even though I mostly avoid saying things I haven’t gone through and filtered in my mind, say completely stupid shite things that I don’t mean.
I’m clumsy, and drop things (like, ehem, my phone), and if I didn’t have good reflexes, I would no doubt be the kind of clumsy that falls on my face daily.
I learn through making mistakes (which is both good and bad, it’s pretty much how I taught myself how to sow).
I compress all of my problems into a little ball inside me, and through many years of keeping it in, I can pretty much not cry anymore. At all. And despite what society would have you believe people, this is not a good thing. I have one memory of bawling until I couldn’t stand or talk. ONE. In all my (of what I can remember) life.
These are but SOME of my numerous problems. But, they are part of me. And I wouldn’t want them gone.
Now, I’m not trying to preach that I’m some paragon of self-love here. Not at all. But I hope that if someone reads this, you can see what self-love is to me, and by such, try to get on the road to what it means for you.
And I’m not saying that I don’t have bad days. God knows I do. But, most of the time, I can look at myself in the mirror and say “hey. I dig you. You’re pretty cool, and not too bad to look at either”. Followed by a wink and a grin. And, though this hasn’t happened to me yet (and I hope it won’t for a loong time), I think I would be able to take someone insulting me. I mean, if I like me, why should I be bothered?
Now, even though I still have problems (too many to count), it’s all made easier by me loving myself and having some semblance of a good confidence.
I’m reaching the end of this little rant, and I want to end it by saying that self-love isn’t an easy road. It’s a life-long road, and it’s hard, with hard turns and stones in the wheels. But it makes it all easier, if you have the foundations of self-love. It makes it easier to give love away, and not to fall too hard when someone wants to bring you down.
I just wish, that if you’re reading this, you try to start on the road of self-love. I can’t say how to do it, it’s different for everyone. But, if you’re reading this, you are all are perfect. Flaws and all.
You all deserve to be loved by the best. You.
Have a good day, lovelies. /Yuuki
