#thghts

[koretearjerky]

Nagising akong ikaw agad ang unang pumasok sa isip ko. Para bang wala naman talagang araw na lumipas na hindi kita naaalala. At heto na naman ako–binabalikan ang huli mong mensahe, iniisip kung ano ba talaga ang ibig sabihin nun.

Kung kinulit ba kita, maiinis ka?

Kung nagkwento ba ako tungkol sa nangyayari sakin, maiintindihan mo ba?

Kung sinabi ko bang sana maintindihan mo ako, papayag ka ba?

Pero sabi mo, ayaw mo ng drama. At ako, yun lang ang meron. Mga timbang hindi ko mabitawan. Hindi ko alam kung kaya mo ba yon o hindi.

Kaya hayaan na. Lilipas din to, kagaya ng lahat ng bagay na hindi naman talaga sa'kin. Sana mag-inom kami mamaya. Para... baka sakaling tumahimik kahit sandali itong magulong isipan ko.

[koretearjerky]

Hindi ko na maalala kung anong itsura mo… pero ewan ko ba, ikaw pa rin yung naaalala ko

[koretearjerky]

I just remembered all the people who took my efforts for granted.

Not just once. Not just twice. But more times than I’d like to admit and the sad part? I never made a scene. I never asked to be praised or even thanked. I just kept giving—time, energy, presence, care. I gave because I wanted to, because it felt right, because I thought they’d feel it too.

But looking back a lot of them didn’t.They didn’t notice how thoughtful I tried to be. How I’d remember the little things. How I’d go the extra mile even when I didn’t have to. How I’d show up even when I was tired, even when I was going through things too.

I don’t regret the effort. I don’t regret the love. What I regret is thinking that people who received it would value it the same way I did.

Now I know better. Now I give slower, softer, and more carefully because effort, once taken for granted, turns into distance you can never really close again.

[8cht]

Whatever happens happens & if it all ends, that’s fine

[8cht]

2025 started off very bad & doing everything rn to make it a great year

[8cht]

Life been so weird lately

[8cht]

2025, the year of disappointment

[8cht]

Maaan im sick of all this bs. Cant find a job cuz i have no experience. I also cant move out because of it for next couple months and im sick of my roommates. Getting fucked over daily by everyone & everything, yeah thats how life has been last months