#thingsthatarethings

[oldthatisstrongdoesnotwither]

I think the Life is Strange ending choices fit with the tone of the game. All actions have consequences and we aren't always able to predict the outcome of those actions. As Max we are reacting to those outcomes and trying our hardest to do what we think is the ‘right thing.’ Warning Victoria about Nathan bites us in the ass because we were wrong about Nathan.  I do wish there was a way to save both Chloe and Arcadia Bay. I wish we were able to learn more about Nathan. I wish we could understand exactly why Max got her powers in the first place. Maybe that’s the good thing. We can continue to theorize the whole experience. Or maybe DontNod just wanted to make us care about these characters so the end choice was more difficult. Who can know for certain? I loved the entire experience. Getting to know these characters. I loved learning Max’s reasons for caring for them and her motivations for saving who she chooses. Both endings were bittersweet. But the dream sequence was weird though. Just, no.

[oldthatisstrongdoesnotwither]

Somebody close to you passing is always difficult and it’s always unexpected. I spent the entire day with my mother cleaning her house but it still doesn't feel entirely real. I saw my grandmother two days ago. Snarky and stubborn as per usual and now she’s gone.

[oldthatisstrongdoesnotwither]

Wow. All these trespasser theories are getting out of hand.

[oldthatisstrongdoesnotwither]

I’ve been staring at the EB Games website for the past two hours waiting for my order to go from ‘processing’ to ‘shipped.’ Realistically... that probably won't happen today but I have nothing better to do.

[oldthatisstrongdoesnotwither]

I was talking to my mother about the Women's World Cup and she was telling me how my fathers first words when my sex was discovered was “great! women play football too! I can teach her!”

[oldthatisstrongdoesnotwither]

Hospitals are awful. At least I got out on my mums birthday. We ate a lot of experimental icecream and watched movies. 

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When you’ve had two major depressive episodes before you hit 20 you kind of get freaked out at every minor symptom. Like it’s all going to happen again. Sleep disrupted, change in eating habits and energy. I’m trying to not go all ‘I’m fucked, all hope is lost.’ Logic time... I forgot about registering Kairi and now I have a $140 fine. That’s a cause of stress. Money is stressful. Stress can cause all those things. I just need to keep reminding myself that I’m doing things I need to do and I’m in a better head space than last year.

[oldthatisstrongdoesnotwither]

Today I was called in for a second interview. Cautiously optimistic.