#think im lying

[hraewordsmith]

if i tell you you’re amazing, i love you, that you deserve all good things, and that you make my life better, and you tell me no?

you’ve just called me a liar.

i am not a liar.

so start accepting the truth.

[ghhoulish]

like seriously..i need a heating pad and some onion rings

[furox]

Okay I feel like I cannot write this email without sounding 1) pathetic 2) oversharing medical info, or, 3) sounding disingenuous?? But here's what I'm working with:

"Dear [REDACTED],

I hope you're well!

I'm emailing you because, after having my first shift yesterday at [REDACTED], I've unfortunately been experiencing concerning pain and inflammation in my forearms.

When I applied for the position, and through the entire interview process, this was not yet an issue for me. However, during the two weeks preceding finals week, I developed disabling pain (and inflammation) in my forearms, wrists, and right hand.

After a course of steroids things seemed much better, so I did not think I would be unable to perform duties required at [REDACTED]. During the shift yesterday afternoon, however, the heavy lifting and manual labor were apparently enough to aggravate my injury.

I've already had to drop my summer classes, as my doctor recommends I aggravate the injuries as little as possible (of course, its impossible to completely forego usage of one's hands altogether). I chose to keep working at [REDACTED] as my one thing I would still do despite the injury this summer, thinking that twice a week for four hours would hopefully not be too much stress for the injury.

It seems I was wrong. It's clear that continuing will deteriorate my physical health and delay any ability to recover.

I'm genuinely devastated and frustrated; I'm also incredibly sorry for the inconvenience this may cause you.

I already learned so much yesterday, and it only made me want to involve myself at [REDACTED] more. But, at the same time, it's clear that I medically cannot do that at this time. No matter how eager and interested I am, I am physically incapable without causing myself pervasive, chronic pain and potential permanent injury (or one that requires surgery, if possible).

I have asked my primary care physician to write a letter I can forward to you; I will make sure you have it ASAP.

I cannot stress enough that this decision is not made lightly, and it upsets and frustrates me greatly. But it is clear this injury is worse than I realized, and will likely take months to heal.

I am so grateful I was chosen for the position. Thank you so much again for your time and consideration. Being chosen was absolutely a highlight of my year.

I am looking forward to hearing back from you.

All the best,

[MY NAME]"

This is so rough. If anyone wants to comment with feedback, I'll gladly welcome it. OTL