Sep 16, 2025
so as the comic is being re released I’ve been taking notes on it which made me stay up so long last night I got violently ill and shirked many responsibilities. this will happen again
#this fucking.. COMIC#I WANT TO DO AND THINK ABOUT OTHER THINGS#ACTUALLY IMPEDING MY HEALTH AND LIFE#AND ITS ALL BC I SO DESPERATELY WANT TO WRITE A FAN ADVENTURE BUT MY IDEAS ARE SO DISORGANIZED#SCREEEEEEEAMS#sometimes I really wish I wasn’t so void coded#but in terms of creativity (arguably one of the driving forces of my existence interpersonally)#I FEEL AS THO VOID IS SO APT. BECAUSE no matter how much I draw it never seems to be enough to fulfill the endless desire for creation#which is a void. itself. in my life. or creates voids because it is honestly on the same level as addiction at times#WHICH. IS CRAZY. BEFORE THIS HUGE BOOM IN MY ART#I wasn’t drawing for months at a time#I was literally not drawing anything maybe like a small sketchbook doodle for a specific character or something but it never branched our#out*#and idk. I just. at this point I’m making bracelets and shit just to make sure I am covering all my creative bases#is this what real life pageism feels like#it has to be what real life voidism feels like#or at least a part of many tropes for void players themselves#all this parasocial classpecting is making me want to work on my characters#BUT THE RESPONSIBILITIES. RAAAGGHHHHH