#this got deep...

[xcharmedxheirsx]

✘ Delilah Do you want to fuck Helena again?

@xhelenaxleblancx​

Finger was RAPPING against the dining room table. Other hand was buried in her hair. PITCH DARK EYES focusing intently on the bible splayed out on the desk. Ra-ta-ta-ta-ta-ta-ta, Ra-ta-ta-ta-ta-ta-ta,RA-TA-TA-TA-TA-TA-TA. “That if ya confess with yer MOUTH, ‘Jesus is Lord’, an’ believe in yer HEART that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.  For it is with yer heart that you BELIEVE an’ are JUSTIFIED, an’ it is with your mouth that you CONFESS an’ are SAVED.”Ra-ta-ta-ta-ta-ta-ta, Ra-ta-ta-ta-ta-ta-ta,RA-TA-TA-TA-TA-TA-TA.

Black eyes finally peered up. Pair of EMPTY LITTLE PITS hungering for MORE. “I-I wish I could…” Her entire body carried the weight of GUILT. “I told the Pastor at Confessional. He…” Pauses to collect her thoughts. “He said it was OKAY. That the Lord forgave my THOUGHTS. Th-That it was in ACTING upon them that I’d BREAK my vows an’ FORSAKE my salvation…” Another beat of SEVEN into the table. RA-TA-TA-TA-TA-TA-TA. “So, yes… I DO wish I could. But it is in HIS NAME that I cannot. And I shall remain CLEAN. For His SAKE. For His SACRIFICE…”

[melas-kyknos]

got a book on epigraphy & a book on Cicero from the library, now continuing with the Iliad

I‘m home 🌟

[angelica-ainsworth]

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Headcanons n shit

Fear.

Angelica as you may well know was once Human, but after dying in undetermined circumstances had her Ego (Soul) Displaced from her old body and transferred into that of a Doll body. A process that by its very nature causes something to be lost by the method of its transference, Displacement Thaumaturgy, causing her to lose 90% of her former Human emotional capacity.

But I digress, does Angelica feel fear? And if so, what is she afraid of? To understand her better you need to understand the nature of her Ego, although she has 10% of an average Human’s capacity to feel fear it is enough to incite bodily responses that Angelica herself would not be consciously aware of. Having said this she does feel fear, albeit very rarely and only briefly, but isn’t aware of it, and would have no real way to express it if she did.

As for what she’s afraid of, if I had to take a gander, herself. Angelica fears that this is it for her, trapped piloting this empty husk, a ghost in the shell so to speak, Angelica’s own Ego may be crying or screaming out in agonised despair and her conscious mind would never even know...

[free-eden]

top 5 regrets

• being in denial of my sexuality for a good while, I’ve only recently fully accepted it• letting people take advantage of me through emotional manipulation• trying to keep everyone happy and not caring about my own well being• thinking that it was a good idea to study for exams for hours straight and not let myself enjoy anything• staying fixated on the past when I should have been looking ahead

Ask me my “top 5” anything!