#this is 21

[weirdgirl247]

now time to watch new hard launch and crochet :3 yay

[killherfreakout]

eating salad for dinner at 11pm bc i just woke up from a nap 🤥

[thyme-sweetened-honey]

😅

[justbeforetheyloseitall]

My birthday's this saturday so i've been planning a dinner with friends and it is so stressful restaurant people are so stressful being social is so stressful woowwwww

[sarahiam]

Ghosts of Not-Boyfriends Past

After running into three not-boyfriends of my past last night, I started wondering what happened? At one point I really liked these people, and thy liked me, it feels weird to know their deep personal things and not be at minimum a-text-a-week contact. So I started thinking about why I'm still single. The following is a brief character analysis of my self: 1. My success is intimidating. I'm in a challenging program, driven to succeed to the point that failure is not even a valid option. I'm not willing to let myself fail. I understand that could be intimidating to someone who is taking school casually. But it isn't a bad thing I just need a partner who can support me, and not feel small in the very large shadow I cast 2. I hate being wrong. I know enough to usually be correct, and won't even argue if there's a chance I may be wrong. This is something I need to work on, admitting I'm wrong and letting myself be wrong. 3. I have a bit of a reputation (depending on who you talk to). That's my past. I'm never going to be ashamed of it, I will own choice I've made, because at the time of the decision it's the choice that made sense. 4. I'm independent. It's how I know to survive, I've had to depend on falling back on myself that i find it difficult to give my security completely to others. I'll have to be vulnerable at some point in the relationship, but I think self reliance is a good thing! I won't let someone else be the sole reason I have a good or bad day, there's so much more to my life than a silly boy. I think I'll have to verbally acknowledge the happiness one can bring to my life, but I'll never be completely reliant on someone. I don't want to date anyone who makes me their entire world either. 5. My friends are my family, my first priority. That's never going to change, if a boy who I haven't been just friends with before dating him, thinks I'm ever going to put him first, he's wrong. And I wouldn't expect to be the first priority in his life either. That's fair isn't it? 6. My priorities aren't dating. School/friends/showering all come before seeing a fella. Maslow's hierarchy. How can i give someone my best, if I'm not at my best? I don't want to end up resenting someone because they've taken up my too precious time. Maybe I'll just get a sugar daddy instead.

[lionfaux]

Birthday things: -dream that makes reality and nightmares indistinguishable from one another in the worst way -waking up just to blackout on the bathroom floor from physical pain -pain is so bad once consciousness is regained your hands won’t unfurl no matter how much you try to make them go flat on the ground -cold sweat and a panic attack - :’) kill me

[j-anuary25th-blog]

November 23

My baby knows how to celebrate my birthday in the perfect way. Spoiling me with presents. Eating chicken wings, drinking tankards of beer and watching the hockey game. Falling into bed in his arms and kissing my head every time he had the chance. Wrapping his fingers around my throat and leaving trails of his kisses on my thighs while looking up at me with those puppy dog eyes.