brojohn tag was lookin empty so have some fuckass sad brojohn PLUS davebuse. i can’t treat dave right sorry :(
anyway heres a peek into the scenario where dave is desperate to have a relationship with his brother. who unbeknownst to him is fucked up
dave ==>
i never measure up. never fucking ever. no matter how hard i try, how many strifes i fight, how small i make myself. it doesnt count for shit.
john? he's a fucking dweeb. he doesnt even try. all he does is smile at bro and say "hi mr strider!" with that STUPID toothy grin.
and he gets everything.
why does he get everything? what kind of cruel ass god is getting his rocks off at my expense?
to make matters worse, john is totally innocent here. i can't even bring myself to hate him. and that pisses me off all the more. he deserves to be hated for the role hes taken from my life. my very own brother. my flesh and fucking blood.
and im not even his goddamn favorite.
staring at john's infuriating sappy smile when bro shows genuine interest in him. when he cares more about his fuckass movies than hes EVER been interested in anything ive ever told him. whatever. its whatever. im fucking used to it by now.
yeah. im used to it by now.
so why does it still sting?
and sometimes i guess john stays over out on the couch and i hear bro talk to him. i never know what theyre saying but its not like theyre all that quiet.
chatting away like real brothers. not that i would know.
john ==>
dave's bro is real cool! he lets me call him bro instead of mr strider and i think that’s awesome. my dad is the real uppity old school type and makes me call stranger sir and whatnot.
ive always wanted a cool older brother, i really envy dave! bro talks to me about all the things im interested in and actually seems to know a bit about them!
im so grateful they let me sleep over and have the couch, especially considering the apartment's pretty cramped! i like falling asleep watching TV- id never be allowed to do that back at home. plus bro gives me a ton of junk food!
the other night when dave was fast asleep bro came out to check on me. he sat next to me on the couch and i didnt really mind it! but then again im not too worried about that- dave's more the squirmy type when it comes to getting up close and personal!! i wonder why? hm. i dunno!
anyway, he got real close to me and was like, yknow i think youre cooler than dave. or something like that. and i was a little offended on dave's behalf!! the dude is WAY cooler than me.
he told me so many real awesome things he thought about me though, which honestly is a MAJOR win! if dave's bro likes me that means i can hang with him more! :)