hiii bee!! 23 from list 1 “You weren’t there…why weren’t you there?” with jj pls? ouch
23. “You weren’t there…why weren’t you there?”
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After an entire summer spent chasing gold, watching JJ get into fight after fight after fight with the kooks, and arguing more than you loved each other, you and JJ broke up. You hadn’t spoken to him since, but you knew what was going on in his life.
His best friend was gone. You’d heard about it John B leaving. Everyone had heard about it. The outer banks is pretty small and word travels fast. Especially when that word involves Sarah Cameron. But you never called, never visited to see how he was, or asked anyone about him.
You cared, but the memories of the breakup were too much. You didn’t want to face him.
Until you needed to.
You walked to John B’s house. You’d heard word that JJ had been staying there since John B left. Kie and Pope were there often too, but you felt lucky not seeing them today.
You knocked a few times, patiently waiting until the door opened. JJ stood in front of you, looking like he hadn’t slept in weeks.
You caught his eyes, but only for a moment before you nervously looked anywhere else. “Hey. How’re you holding up?”
“How am I holding up?” JJ questioned. “You come to see me and the first thing you ask me how I’m holding up. How do you think I’m holding up?”
“I-I.. I don’t know. I wanted to... see if there was anything I could do to help.”
“You want to help? Help with what?” His voice raised with his words. “My best friend is gone, Y/N! And you weren’t there... you weren’t there when he almost drowned, you weren’t there when we were questioned by the cops. You weren’t there when my dad kicked me out again but not before kicking me to the ground multiple times. Why weren’t you there? And why do you think you get to be here now?”
You couldn’t form words. JJ yelling at you wasn’t unfamiliar, but it didn’t make it hurt any less. “I’m sorry. I wanted to be there. I wanted to help, but I didn’t know it would get that bad that fast. And I was mad at you and didn’t want to face you.”
“Hating me doesn’t mean you couldn’t support our friends. The least you could’ve done is been there for John B, and Pope, and Kiara, hell even Sarah. So you don’t get to be sorry when you’re the one who made that choice.”
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