#this.. got away from me

[sulkybbarnes]

i know she's too up her own ass to ever do this, but you know what would be effective? m*ggie posting some nice messages or questions she's got from queer fans about pynch and talking about how these are the types of questions she enjoys getting and answering. but why would she do that when she could shame women (including wlw) for not being as woke as she is

So I say this every time I get an ask that needs discussion: I’m going to answer this in parts bc that’s how my brain works so bear with me. 

First of all, mst*ef would never post these types of questions because she isn’t interested in treating p//nch as an actual romance. I hate to say it but it becomes more and more evident to me the more she talks about her books that p//nch were never meant to be the main romance of her books. Every scene of them together pushed the narrative forward or was used for exposition and plot points, whereas blu*/gans*y were allowed chapters of phonecalls and scenes that were purely ‘romance’. Please note I’m just comparing the writing here, not stating an opinion on either ship. To post these types of questions would be to confront the fact that most important p//nch moments happen off-page and are mentioned only in passing. Even their second kiss and the following night and conversations just fades to black. Which leads me to my next point:

Posting these questions or acknowledging asks from lgbt fans and minorities would shine into painful light the fact that her books are severely lacking in terms of representation. Mst*ef did the bare minimum of including lgbt characters then sat back expecting praise and gratitude for having them in her books at all…. and she got exactly what she wanted from the majority of her fans. This tactic of posting only bad asks and ‘calling out’ people for sending them is a way to get herself out of having a real discussion, and garnering sympathy. She does it every so often to shift the focus from the homophobic undertones in her writing, and from the fact that sexuality and racism are dismissed in her narrative, and that she queerbaited people into reading the Op//l story only to double back and criticise them for expecting what she promised (remember her saying there’ll be a “sexy p//nch scene” then writing a voyeuristic scene instead?? yeah… that).

My third point is that she isn’t “woke” or socially aware but she sure does like acting like it. Much like Blue’s feminism in the book, mst*ef’s handling of any serious issues (sexuality, lack of poc characters, bad treatment of an lgbt pairing) is to get loud and high and mighty. A friend just mentioned that she blocked comments on her latest instagram mess, which I believe says a lot on how willing she is to hear anyone out. In all the years I’ve been in this fandom I never once saw her actively listening or acknowledging any point made by her readers unless it’s something that agrees with her. She always chooses the select few from a minority who agree with her and boosts the shit out of their posts, then posts the bad asks she gets as soon as anyone disagrees to garner sympathy and divert attention. I’ve seen her doing some version of it too many times to count at this point. I want to say again that her claim that gay men agree with her and have never sent her any asks is a flimsy excuse to keep being dismissive towards wlw and garner sympathy points from fans who are too young or too uncaring to view what she says critically. It’s a tactic that cishet and white writers have been using to dismiss minorities for years. 

I’m sorry if this got long and harsher than I intended it to be, but I’ve been struggling with the fandom and mst*ef a lot lately and almost deleted my t*c content a handful of times. The fact that she’d compare wlw to straight men watching p*rn on a public platform when wlw are already treated as a dirty taboo thing just… truly enrages me. And I’m fed up with cishet writers speaking for me and my existence when they haven’t been through 0.05% of what wlw have to go through every day of our lives. Overall, I think I’m currently staying for Adam and R*nan but I won’t be engaging with any of her future content that’s for sure.

[astringere-a]

these should fit you. @ paz. (circumstances? idk! we'll see!)

they had opened the door to find @axeattitude outside hours ago,   mouth easily curled into a youthful and bright smile,  all dimples and east coast sunshine.  then paz had beaconed him inside with an unabashed   '  mi amor,  are you hungry?  '   that might have made casual on lookers wonder,  but that doesn't give either of them pause.  it is simply how paz expresses that overflowing amount of love they feel,  to friends and lovers alike   (   and everything in between   ).  not despite of what they have been through,  perhaps,  but precisely because of it.  no more shame.  no more pain.

asking him to stay for dinner had come natural,  a simple progression of the late afternoon bleeding into evening.

the kitchen smells of cilantro and freshly out of the oven bread.  paz is humming to some playlist   (   spanish pop to rock, then back around to old style disco   )   as their stir the soup.  they can hear kerry rummaging around for something at their back,  but they don't turn just yet.  they wait,  patient and content,  comfortable in their skin as well as around him.

''  kerry,  you—  ''   they all but gasp,  a mouthed oh my god moving their mouth.  paz knows their usually so steady fingers are shaking slightly as they reach for the bundle of fabric.  it's not for the novelty  —  they have given each other gifts in the past,  trinkets from markets and more serious things alike,  but this feels personal in a new way.  it makes them feel truly seen,  accepted.  it's armbands,  a wonderful combination of dark and practical and not boring,  with special inner pockets that would allow them to stash their knives in public without looking like a psychopath on the loose.   ''  it's perfect,  i love this so much. thank you.  ''   they lean over to give him a kiss on the cheek,  not bothering to hide how their eyes have started to glimmer,  wet with tears of happiness.

ordinary monsters

[prosciuttoe]

So um since ALIE-Raven brought up Bellamy's feelings for Clake, all of the people who are in the city of light must know about it right??

ok listen, you’re right. but consider this: I’m pretty sure like 80% of the earth’s population knows about Bellamy’s feelings for Clarke. have you met the guy?? what a drama queen. One time he got stabbed in the leg and he went around crying for his apparently-strictly-platonic-life-partner and caressed her face while he was at it and let’s not get me started on all those looks

anyway. my point is that everyone knows, pretty much, EXCEPT THOSE TWO BOZOS THEMSELVES, I’M SO TIRED