#thom rants

[le-thom]

twenty one pilots lyrics go hard if you're specifically looking at it from an ex-christian perspective because earlier top was definitely a lot about him exploring his doubts with his faith. growing up catholic, this was something i related to a lot

unfortunately as i aged, and tyler as well, we did not end up with the same conclusions in regards to perspective about religion. and because our ideologies no longer match, i grew out of the newer top songs. i imagine this is probably what happened with a lot of the old clique as well and why majority of the fanbase is younger conservative kids

i respect tyler joseph a lot as a writer. i just think there's something to say about how his early success meaning reaffirmation of his beliefs. not saying that's a bad thing, he has every right to believe what he believes. it's just at some point his writing perspective no longer matched mine when he stopped questioning his faith. that is all

[le-thom]

blankets over mirrors, she tends to like it

she's not afraid of her reflection, but of what she might see behind it

she had plans to change her name, just not the traditional way

haunted by a couple big mistakes

she covers all the dents with the way she decorates

where she changed her clothes was her only escape

and she felt she could never truly be forgiven

so she pawns off all the evidence that she ever existed

then one night she got cold with no blankets on her bed

so she ripped them off, stepped back and she said

i don't want to go like this

at least let me clean my room

i don't want to live like this

[le-thom]

you ever just listen to an artist and it's like damn you put drugs in this song this is the 32nd time i'm listening to it today

[le-thom]

there's a creepy looking clown on my dash and just realized it's a one piece netflix ad thing uhhhhh there should be a way to turn this off because i can see this as legitimately unsettling for other people

[le-thom]

this is a long shot but if any of you are from the philippines, i have a table in this con where i'll sell little knick knacks (stickers, prints). come hang out :^)

[le-thom]

🚨 please help me if you can 🚨

hey, there's no good way to sugarcoat this but i am broke. i've been trying desperately for months to get a job but i am getting nothing, i promise you. last july i lost my job because i fell into a huge bout of depression and basically failed to be a productive piece of shit at work. i was able to live off of my savings for a little bit but it's been 4 months and i've hit my limit. i have less than $10 to my name. i have food in my fridge for now, but it will only last me a couple more weeks.

i've been scraping by by doing some art commissions here and there and selling some of my shit. you've probably seen me reblog my own commissions post a lot. it is not enough. i need to raise roughly ~$500 monthly for my rent and bills. this doesn't account for groceries, but that 500 is the most important thing. i am already 16 days past rent. none of my commissions post have actually generated anything. i don't know what to do anymore

i don't like doing this but i am going to lay down my cards here. i am a queer poc mentally ill (undiagnosed) who can't really ask his family for help, mostly because they're also going through their own thing. i live alone. it is so difficult to keep asking for help from my friends because i am already so ashamed of the situation i am in but i am so dead.

if you would like to help me out by commissioning me, you can check my stuff out here. otherwise, you can donate any amount to paypal.me/thomsvoid. reblogging would be neat too if you can

thank you, apologies for the sob story, but i dont know what else to do

(alternatively if you need an illustrator/graphic designer/video editor i can show you my folio)

November 4 Edit:

I still need around $300 to pay for October’s bills, and my November ones start kicking in on the 14th. Thank you for the support so far! I still have some ways to go.

Again, here are my available commissions:

- Character commissions

- Pixel art

- Folio

Thanks!

[le-thom]

you should’ve seen my cursive back then

every letter was above the line

clap clap

[le-thom]

bought some black drug store nail polish on a whim. i'm really going through it