Obsessed with the idea of violent pornography specifically. I'm not talking about bondage or foul play. I mean "violent" in all senses of the word. Here, pornography may not refer to one particular idea or type of media. It's cannibalism fueled by carnality. It's the adrenaline rush one gets while wanting to tear the skin off of one's own body. It's the static age-old VHS tape with a corrupted film, showing nothing but simultaneous shots of blood splattered over the white floor. It's heavy-lidded eyes, blurry and burning due to all the nights spent awake. It's the axe slicing the head open, brains splattering everywhere. It's creation. It's destruction. It's what we call "life." It's beautifully ugly and repulsively immaculate. Am I making sense?
