#thoughtstoself

[kimbuhleelove]

I have feelings for him, but I know it’ll not be more between us.. I would love to be closer to him though. I think about him more than usual now a days.. it’s just that I love the person he is. He is very outgoing, charming, he’s so attractive and tall. I can just tell by the way he talks about his parents he knows how to love. He’s honest, even if it has to do with other women he tells me everything. I don’t get jealous, which may seem strange to others, but I feel so intrigued when he tells me about his last relationships and mostly everything he talks about. I care about him. I love listening to him talk, such a great camp fire story teller I bet. He is kind, he is willing to help me especially when times were hell for me.. and the one last thing that I truly admire about him ( I’m sure there’s many more things ;) is that he always tells me to live up my life and to not waste it being around those who do not make me feel good about myself. He brings out a wild side of me and I like it. ALSO HE GOT GREAT TASTE IN MUSIC LIKE ME. He’ll always be my friend I would hope, even if we’re both married by other people hehe.

5/21/20

[reveriesofalonewolf]

*gets a cool, new gaming laptop rig*

*instantly makes new tumblr account.*

why am i like this

[uhleeyuhslife]

I just want one huge grand gesture done for me to show i’m actually appreciated :( you know those all day type of gifts? where you’re just so overwhelmed by how many people are showing they care. yeah that’s what I want :(.

[kimbuhleelove]

(5/17/20) I felt like this was the perfect song to describe today’s feelings. I spent all day listening to music that had something to do with my growth. My trauma contributes to it. We all deal with trauma differently ofc. So, today you either saw me in nature or lying on my rug just living in my thoughts. It’s real simple, it said I have a lot of learning to do. A little structure in life don’t hurt nobody right. I remember I was a broken glass, now I’m a healing formidable heart beating beautiful monster.

[thewannabematt-blog]

When you realized you drank all the alcohol 🤔😅🙃. . . #wannabematt #Havefaith #portrait #allblack #YouTube #chill #thoughtstoself

[depthsdeep]

Rest but no rest?

My head's working too hard, waking at 5 with thoughts of work and the amount of things flooding my head. How do I stop the thoughts but not go away and even to organise it?

[simplifysimplicitymuch]

Grow up, child.

As time passes, from secondary school to uni, I realized how i haven’t change much. Be it physically, mentally, spiritually or intellectually. Yet when I look around me, my parents, siblings, friends, acquaintances, whoever, have changed. But why am I still the same? Why does it look as if I was the same 5 years ago? Or 10 years ago?  Just recently, a friend of mine was commenting about how the people around me changed.  “Eh, they have become prettier!” “Their dress style changed!” “She looks so good.” “Wah, he so damn handsome now.”  “But why do you still look the same?” Hah. How am i supposed to answer such a question? I wonder why too. It is as if while people are moving forward, I’m the only one moving backwards.  It’s time to grow up, child.

[xonothingspromised]

Grad school

I have absolutely NO social life upon entering grad school. I hope one day this is worth it.