Tower Chaos
Summary: Bucky Barnes x fe!Reader -> You have had feelings for Bucky for a long time. Yelena finally questions you about it.
Disclaimer: Spoilers for Thunderbolts. Kinda Tower fanfic, reader helps Bucky when he's hurt, established relation/friendships with characters, YelenaBob pairing, found family chaos, yelling in Russian, mentions of injuries and cuts, happy ending. Not Proof Read.
You sighed. They never had your favourite ice cream flavour. You’d think being a regular customer, who regularly asks for your regular favourite ice cream, they would keep it stocked.
But no. So, reaching for your second favourite, you threw it into your basket and continued shopping.
Five minutes later, you were being handed a plain plastic bag and your change.
“Have a nice night,” you called as you left the store.
Usually, you’d have your headphones in, playing whatever playlist Joaquin had mashed together from your work laptop before you could stop him. Some songs were good, others not so much.
But since they’d died before you’d stepped a foot out of your apartment, you’d left them behind.
The emergency ice cream run was too important.
However, it was as you were walking back to your apartment you started to hear noises. Grunting, mostly. And it was one you seemed to recognise.
Down the alleyway, Bucky tried to catch his breath. All he’d tried to do was help, but instead he’d gotten the crap beat out of him. Just because he was a super soldier didn’t mean he didn’t bleed.
Yet, as his body slumped to the floor, he saw a shadow cast over him. And just for a moment, he accepted what might come next. A death? A kidnapping? A ransom note? More beatings?
That was when he got a shock to his chest.
“Come on,” you sighed, hoisting him up. “Suppose you’re coming with me.”
“Y/n?”
Bucky had to be dreaming. Was he already dead?
“Well done. I see the old-man eyesight hasn’t kicked in yet.”
Bucky just grunted and tried his best to walk on his own, inevitably leaning on you for support.
Once you’d gotten him through the door to your apartment, you helped him onto the sofa.
“Don’t go anywhere.”
As Bucky held his side, trying to make himself a little more comfortable in his seat, you walked behind him and towards the kitchen.
Pulling the freezer door open, you placed the plastic bag from the store inside and shut it in. you moved across the kitchen and grabbed your first aid kit from under the sink and eventually found yourself kneeling on the floor besides Bucky’s legs.
“How did you find me?” Bucky asked you as you ripped some packaging open and shook the ice pack.
You pressed it into his side. “I was getting supplies.”
“Medical?”
“Ice cream,” you told him. He held onto the pack as you moved back to the kit to grab something else. “So, do you wanna tell me what happened? Or am I gonna have to guess?”
“I didn’t plan on it.”
“Nobody plans on getting hurt, Bucky.”
He looked at you, but you didn’t look at him. Your focus remained on the cut on his arm as you cleaned it.
“Why didn’t you just come to me?” You asked him, eventually. He’d gotten hurt a few hours before, but thought he could walk it off.
Bucky’s voice was quiet when he spoke. “Didn’t think you’d want to see me.”
For a moment, your eyes flicked to his face before going back to the second cut you were gluing shut. “We had a fight, Bucky. Doesn’t mean I want to see you get hurt.”
Bucky sighed a little before he looked around your apartment. There seemed to be more stuff on your shelves than usual. Books and pictures that were usually kept in your office at the Compound.
“Why aren’t you staying with Sam and the others?”
You were avoiding his gaze; he knew that much. “We’re, uh, we’re not really talking right now.”
The small bottle rattled against the other items in your kit as you threw it inside. Bucky leaned forward as you sat back on your heels.
He just looked worried and concerned. “Why?”
You gave a short sigh. “Because I stuck up for you, and now he thinks I’ve chosen a side. There are no sides to this, Buck. You, Yelena, and the others. You saved people that day. That deserves to be recognised. But none of you even had a choice.”
It felt like the battle had been going on forever. When the woman you’d come to know as ‘Val’ had introduced the world to ‘The New Avengers’, you’d taken one look at their faces on the screen.
They hadn’t been expecting it.
And your thoughts were confirmed as much when you called Bucky a few hours later to check in on him and the others.
However, Sam hadn’t been as composed. He’d been asked by the President himself to start up a new team of Avengers. And, somehow, six people the country had seen as enemies of the State were suddenly being introduced to the world as the very people who should be trusted with civilian lives.
The rift had started immediately.
And you’d been stuck in between ever since.
“Again,” Bucky added, solemnly.
Even before you’d met Bucky, you already knew enough of his past to know not much of who he was in the modern world had been consensual.
You reached out and squeezed his hand. “I’m sorry Sam doesn’t see that. But he will.”
Bucky nodded for a moment, squeezing back. “I know. Do you…want to come and stay with us for a while? I know Yelena misses you.”
You smiled, if a little sadly, for a moment. Yelena had been your best friend – once she stopped trying to kill Clint.
And for a moment, you nodded your head. Only to then shake it. “It’s probably best that I don’t. But I wouldn’t mind coming to dinner once in a while.”
Bucky smiled a soft smile. He missed you, too. “We’d like that.”
Three days later, you arrived inside the Tower.
It was mostly open plan, with grey, black and gold. Every once in a while, there was a hint of red.
Surprisingly, you’d been let through immediately.
Apparently, your name was on the security list.
And so began the steady elevator climb to the top penthouse.
Once the doors pinged open, you stepped out. And for a while, no one was there. You knew you were early, but an hour before, something in your gut told you they needed your help.
“Hi,” a soft voice said somewhere beside you.
Eight feet from where you were standing was Bob; dressed in a purple sweater and a pair of jeans.
“Hi. I-I know I’m early but-”
That was when swear words erupted from the direction of the kitchen. Three pan crashes and two seconds later, Bucky emerged from the kitchen. John was following behind him as Alexei yelled something in Russian.
Bucky visibly relaxed. “Hey, you’re here.”
Before you could say anything, someone called your name from behind you.
Yelena was across the room, her Guinea Pig in her hands. For a moment, she’d stopped. Then she was rushing. Carefully placing him in his pen, Yelena dusted off her hands and ran towards you before hugging you, tightly.
You smiled and hugged her back.
Then she moved back, keeping her hands on you. “You’re early,” she said, a little surprised.
You looked around at the others. “I know-”
“Some might say it’s rude to be early.”
You gave a subtle glare to John. “But something told me you might need my help.”
You looked at Bucky and despite his smile and his nod, he seemed…tired. If a little scared.
“You couldn’t be more right.”
From having both hands on his hips, he reached out and took yours. Once you were standing beside him in the kitchen, you realised why.
“Oh.”
Two pots were overflowing with some kind of chilli…soup…mix. One pan had been burnt with, what you assumed was meant to be mashed potato and the rest…
“Oh my god,” Yelena practically threw her words up. “Dad!”
Ava appeared beside you. “We all drew straws for who got to cook tonight. Alexei won and nearly burnt our home down. Is that wine?”
You wondered what she meant until you realised you were still holding the bottle you brought. “Oh, yeah. Thought we could drink it with dinner.”
Your other hand was still in Bucky’s.
“We don’t usually let him cook because of, well, this.” Bucky breathed.
As Yelena moved across the kitchen, yelling at her dad and almost chasing him out of the kitchen whilst yelling in Russian, John leaned in.
“Can any of this be salvaged?”
“Should it be salvaged?” Bob asked, standing on the other side of you.
You remained quiet for a few minutes. Both because you were still registering the mess of the kitchen, but also because a plan was being drawn up in your head.
“Where’s your storage cupboard?”
Bucky nodded to the otherside of the kitchen. “Through there.”
“Come with me.”
Pulling him with you, you both managed to avoid slipping on whatever red-oil monstrosity was spilling onto the floor. On the way past, Bucky turned the heat down before the entire thing blew up.
“What are we looking for?”
You quickly gave Bucky a list as you reached and grabbed things. As he helped you, you popped your head back out into the kitchen.
“How quickly do you think you two can clean this up?”
John pointed at himself. “Us?”
“Yes, you. And Bob.”
“But- this is not a two man job.”
“Then ask Yelena and Ava for help.”
John groaned as you disappeared back into the storage space with Bucky.
Twenty minutes later, Alexei was apologising to you for not correctly making his…whatever he called it, dish properly.
“You’re forgiven, Alexei.”
“Thank you.”
What followed was an evening of…fun. For the first time in a long time, you saw each of them smile. Bucky, Yelena…hell, even John.
Yelena gave a small gasp. “You should stay for a movie. You can stay right?”
You hadn’t answered before she’d answered for you. “You’re staying. I’ll go and get Bob. It’s his turn to pick the movie.”
You chuckled softly as you watched Yelena run away and down the hall. You’d all long since finished your dinner. Bob had offered to wash up, but when Yelena had cut in and said Bucky had already volunteered, he’d walked away.
“She’s right, though.” Bucky said to you, a short moment after she left. “You could stay.”
You nodded, but once again, shook your head. As much as your heart wanted to stay, your head wouldn’t let you.
“I know. But I don’t…I don’t want the others thinking…”
For a moment, Bucky met your gaze. Then he lowered his head before he transferred the freshly clean plate onto the drying rack. “Yeah. You’re probably right.”
Two hours later, you were deadly asleep as you rested against Bucky.
Within twenty minutes of the movie coming on, the familiar soundtrack and feeling of Bucky beside you comforted you more than you knew you needed. You didn’t even try to fight it. You closed your eyes and leaned against him.
The next time you woke up, it was feeling his arms slip away from underneath your body.
“Where are you going?”
“I’m gonna stay on the sofa,” Bucky whispered in a low voice. From the way his scent was enveloping your senses, you could only assume you’d been placed in his bed.
You pouted a little, your eyebrows furrowing at the thought. “No, that’s…stupid. This is big enough for both of us. Come to bed.”
“Y/n-”
“Just come to bed. It’s not like we haven’t slept in the same bed before.”
It didn’t take much more convincing before Bucky was laying in bed beside you. Almost immediately, you moved closer to him under the covers until you’d placed his arm around you.
Bucky chuckled quietly. “Thought you said it was big enough for the both of us.”
“Shut up.”
Chuckling once more, Bucky fixed the bedding over both of you before leaning closer to you. There was no denying he got a better night’s sleep when he was lying beside you.
It was somewhere in semi darkness your phone started to ring, loudly.
With a groan, you turned over to search for your phone. Somewhere in the darkness, Bucky slurred the direction where he’d put your phone.
Reaching across to one of the night stands, you finally found your phone and answered before looking at the caller ID.
“Hello?”
“Are you okay? Joauqin said he tried texting but you didn’t answer.” Sam started. “I’ve found an old box in the storage room. Finally started clearing this place out-”
From just above you, Bucky mumbled, “Everything okay?”
You nodded, still tired. “It’s just-”
“Are you with Bucky?”
The air felt heavy as he asked. “Sam-”
The shift in his tone was instantaneous. “No, I see how it is. Look, I’ll let Joaquin know you’re busy.” And then, “Maybe it’s best you don’t come back to the Compound for a while.”
You tried to cut in but by the sounds of it, his mind was already made up. And if, without letting you explain, or knowing that you weren’t taking sides, he’d become certain in his decision…
All you said was, “Okay.”
As Sam hung up, you locked your phone; the click echoed around the room.
“Do you need to go?” Bucky asked, quietly. His arm was still around you.
“No,” you laid back down with Bucky. “No.”
Three weeks later, you decided to head to the Compound. As much as you’d ‘moved’ out, some of your stuff was still there. As you packed the last box into your car, you turned back and looked at the outhouse down the road.
Sam was still there. You knew he was; boxes were still being shuffled in and out.
Tearing open another dusty box filled with crap, Sam looked up to see you walking in his direction.
“What the hell are you doing here?”
You stopped just short of the door. “Came to see you.”
The cold was starting to settle in across New York and you’d dressed for it. Boots, jeans, hoodie under your jacket.
“Thought you’d be with the rest of your team.”
“They are my team,” you agreed before hearing Sam give a humming laugh as if to say, “I knew it. You did pick a side.”. “But so are you, Sam.”
You sighed, continuing to talk. “You’re all my family. They’re yours, too, Sam. Or are you gonna shut them out, as well?”
Sam looked up. “I’m not shutting them out.”
“You’re shutting everyone out,” you argued. “They didn’t have a choice, Sam.”
Pulling something from the box to move it towards the mini trash skip, he said, “They stayed. That was their choice.”
Again, you sighed. You averted your eyes from him for a moment to look around the outhouse. He was almost done. It was just the final unit of boxes.
Sam moved back over to the box. “Look, I appreciate you coming here. But I meant it when I said it’s best you don’t come round here.”
“Sam.” you looked at him.
“I get we’re all family, and nothing can truly change that. But…” Sam sighed. “As much as you love us all, you made your decision.”
You felt fire in your belly. “Hey, do not put this on me. That is not fair.”
“Do you love him?”
The fire got hotter.
“That’s got nothing to do with this-”
“Do you love him?” Sam repeated, practically spelling out each word.
“Yes,” you answered before you could think. “But that doesn’t change-”
“It does. You’re too emotionally involved-”
“Emotionally involved!? I get you can be a pain in my ass some days, Samuel. But being an actual ass has never been in your true nature. Deep down you know Bucky didn’t have a choice. Neither did Yelena, or Ava or the rest of their team. And once you’ve finally pulled your head from your ass, maybe you’ll just be able to admit that. This is not on them, and it most certainly is not on me.”
Sam could see the fury in your eyes. He could see the fire in your chest and the hurt in your heart. And he wished he could take it all back.
He’d been there to see you and Bucky grow feelings for each other. He’d been there to witness you both actively avoiding feelings because you both thought it was dangerous.
It was in that garage he realised, this time, he’d been the one in the wrong.
Of course you loved Bucky. But one thing you’d never done is go with your emotions when it came to something on this level.
But that still didn’t change the rift between him and Bucky. He doubted that it would.
“Y/n- I didn’t mean-”
“Yes, you did.” Your gaze was fixed on Sam. “And one day I’ll forgive you for being an ass, but right now…”
Part of you caved and you looked away. You rarely cried, but when you were angry and frustrated…your body betrayed you.
You managed to hold it in as you looked back at him. “Maybe you were right about me coming here. I’m gonna go.”
“Y/n-”
“Bye, Sam.”
Bucky didn’t see you until two days later. And you were still angry from your talk with Sam.
As he walked into the Tower, Bob lifted his head from his milkshake and book. “Y/n’s in the kitchen.”
He dropped his bag by the sofa. “She’s here?”
Bob nodded. “She brought food.”
He held up his milkshake before pointing towards the cup holders on the table. “She got you one, too.”
Picking his cup up on the way, he walked towards the kitchen, already having an idea of the image that was about to greet him. He could smell the lemon blondies from the living room.
The kitchen was mostly clean, which was his first sign. Whenever you did bake, the kitchen tended to be a wonderfully organised yet flour-sprinkled chaos.
When you were pissed, it was almost as neat as a pin.
His second sign was that it was quiet.
Whenever you were baking, there tended to be music or a show in the background. That was if you weren’t already on the phone to someone – specifically, Yelena.
His third sign was the amount of baking you’d done. Lemon blondies, blueberry muffins, chocolate cupcakes, frosting, flapjacks, cornflake cakes, raspberry and vanilla cakes, confetti cakes, protein muffins and many others. They were all stacked and piled in tupperware cases on one of the side counters, if they weren’t still in their pans cooling down.
His fourth sign was that you didn’t move, didn’t even look up, when he walked inside. You were fully focused on what you were doing.
He approached you slowly in the deep silence. “Not good?”
You shook your head, your focus on the batter pouring from the stand mixer into the rectangular cake tin. “Not good.”
As you put it down, Bucky stepped behind you and opened up the oven door. Slotting it inside, he closed the door as you set the timer.
Bucky watched you for a few moments as you took the cake battered bowl to the sink, brought over another one filled with icing and started dishing them out into different food colouring segments.
As he leaned against the counter you were working on, Bucky’s gaze flickered over your face.
He’d known you for so long, he’d easily seen every emotion come across your face. Anger, love, fear, joy, anxiety, embarrassment, confusion, rage, numbness, laughter, and many more.
A lot of them, he’d seen through your eyes.
“Have you been crying?” Bucky asked the question, but he already knew the answer.
He was certain of the answer, even more so, when you didn’t look at him or answer him. So, with a gentle finger under your chin, he tilted your head to look at him. “Hey.”
His voice was soft. Soft enough to break the dam you’d been holding in place.
You didn’t have to say anything. You rarely had to say anything to Bucky. Without hesitating, Bucky took you by the shoulder before holding you into him. Immediately, your arms wrapped around him. It was hard to breathe evenly when you were trying to keep your tears at bay.
“I might take you up on that offer,” you mumbled into his blue henley. “If it’s not too late.”
Bucky smiled, briefly. His hand stroked down the back of your hair before cupping your head. “There were no limitations.”
A bubble of slight laughter rose up your throat. But you just held onto him tighter.
“This is gonna be so cool,” Yelena said as she helped you carry your stuff towards your room. “We finally won’t be outnumbered. We can watch movies- Oh, I’ve already added you to the rota. Your choice is after John’s. A lot of his are military movies which are boring-”
Yelena continued to tell you all about her plans as she helped you move into your room. About her and Ava’s ‘girl’ days. Their on going prank on John, changing a lot of his dark coloured items to bright neon pink; for example, his dark navy towel to a bright neon pink. Same with his face clothes and gym shower bottles.
Both she and Ava warned you about Alexei’s hoarding room; it was mostly filled with memorabilia of the Thunderbolts and ‘New Avengers’. Apparently someone on Etsy had gotten wind of their original title and made t-shirts.
“Oh, the room next door to that one is filled with everything on Yelena.”
You gasped. “Please tell me there’s baby pictures.”
“Pictures?” Ava asked. “Please, there are projector wheels full.”
You looked at Yelena. “Oh, I have to see them.”
“No, you don’t.”
Ava leaned into you. “I’ll get them for you.”
“You know, sometimes I hate the fact you can walk through walls.”
Ava just smiled.
It didn’t take long to get used to living with them. Often Bob joined ‘girls night’ which eventually developed into ‘team’ night when Alexei and John got bored. Games night was every Friday. Bob stayed home most of the day, keeping an eye on reports coming in.
On your days off, you’d help him. A lot of the time, you’d both just talk away until the others came home. You’d even taught him how to bake, which had eventually turned into a baking lesson for a lot of the team considering they’d never really had those moments to learn out of simple enjoyment.
Meanwhile, you and Bucky…were you and Bucky.
And it didn’t take any of their specialist training to notice.
To notice the way Bucky always stood close to you, or how your eyes flicked to each other when the other wasn’t looking. More so if they were. Or how you both seemed to have an unspoken language between each other, already knowing what the other needs.
It didn’t take any of their specialist training to notice the way you looked at each other, or how you interacted. How Bucky’s hand always ghosted over your hip or led you by your lower back. You were also the only one Bucky wasn’t afraid to…touch. To hold hands, or to hug. He’d never been like that with anyone.
Yelena knew, especially. She’d heard stories from her sister.
“Do you think we should do something?”
“What was that film? The one with the single twin? Lainey…Linda…no, that’s not it.”
Yelena sat up straight and sighed. “We watched it last night. The Parent Trap. And it’s Lindsey Lohan.”
“Yes. That one. Why don’t we…just do that?”
Ava sat up. “You really think tricking them onto a boat is going to work?”
Alexei shrugged. “It doesn’t have to be a boat. It could be a closet, or a training room or-”
“We’re not locking them in anywhere.” Yelena told them all. “They’re grown adults.”
“Do you think they’ve always been like that?”
“They were when I first met them,” John said as he transferred food from the stove onto each plate. “He would have died protecting her. And she would have killed him for doing so. They hadn’t even known each other very long from what I knew.”
“So it can’t be that long before something happens, right?” Ava asked. “I mean, she slept in his bed that night she came here for dinner.”
“But that could have been a fluke,” Bob pointed out. “The guest rooms, and her room, weren't finished yet.”
Yelena thought for a moment. “Okay. We need an agreement. If things don’t start naturally, we give them a little push. Nothing big, just…maybe show them the right direction.”
They all agreed.
But six months later, they were sick of the subtle differences they’d all been making. Name dropping, schedule changes, lighting changes, stories. Ava was the first to make the big leap from subtle to not-so-much when she arranged a blind date for you.
The annoyance from Bucky had been clear from the moment she phased through the front door.
However, despite being the one to draw up the agreement, Yelena was the one to truly break it.
“Do you like Bucky?”
She’s marched into your room, dressed in her pajamas, holding onto her guinea pig. Although the question had been a surprise, Yelena bursting into your room at nine at night only to flop down on your bed in front of you was not.
“I’m sorry?”
“Do you like him?” Yelena paused to reframe the question. “Okay, do you have romantic feelings for him?”
You stuttered, “For Bucky?”
She nodded. “Yes.”
She didn’t give you time to answer before explaining. “Because I think you do and since you’re my best friend, I think, legally, I should know.”
“Yelena-”
“I can keep a secret, I promise,” she sat up and talked to her pet. “You know I can. Well, I tell you my secrets but we live with Ava. She knows everybody’s secrets.”
Yelena finally looked back at you. “So?”
So?
So…the answer was yes. You had done for a while. Probably since you met him, if you were being completely honest; though you didn’t recognise them to be romantic then. Just feelings.
Mainly the feeling that you wanted him to be safe, and to be free.
A man willing to lay his life down for his country, only to lose something worse than that to a different cause; one he never chose, one he never consented to. Only to be brought back and be blamed for the act forced on him despite fighting against deadly torture for over twenty years.
That was a man that needed someone in his corner.
“Yelena.” Just from the tone of your voice told her everything she needed to know.
“I knew it. I knew it.” She smiled to herself before repeating herself to her pet. “Why didn’t you tell me?”
You shrugged, putting down your legal pad. “What was there to tell?”
Yelena pretended to think, “Uh, I don’t know. Maybe the fact that I’m your best friend and I should know who my brother in law is going to be. Or that he’s the reason every date I’ve sent you on has never worked out. Or-”
You reached out for her. “Okay, okay. That’s enough.”
“Y/n, why don’t you tell him?”
You looked away for a split second. “We…have an agreement. Kinda. We’ve never spoken about it but, we know.”
“Know what?”
“That it’s too dangerous.”
Her brows furrowed. “Dangerous? Because…it’s so electric you might blow a spark?”
You ran your tongue over your lips. “No, it’s…how do I put this? When he worked together…there was a chance of things going wrong because we wouldn’t be thinking. Neither of us were willing to risk putting people in danger because neither of us could focus properly.”
“Well, that’s…”
“Yeah.”
“Stupid.” Yelena finished. “That’s really stupid. I suppose you two being in love, I have to give you some slack. And the sentiment. That is very sweet. But also incredibly stupid.”
You just looked at her, dumbfounded.
“You like each other. If someone is going to get hurt, then they get hurt. It’s a part of the job. Just because you work together doesn’t mean people will get hurt because of it. The only people who you’re hurting are yourselves. And us, but that’s for another time. You should tell him.”
“Lena-”
“No. You should tell him. And he should tell you. I’m sick of seeing you two act like lovestick cowards.”
You both kept her frustrated for another two months.
You’d been sitting with Bob for most of the day. Around mid-day, you’d both left the Tower to go and get some food. But it was when you were standing in the kitchen, Bob telling you about his ideas for Yelena’s birthday, that a warning flashed around the room.
“What’s going on?”
“I don’t know.”
Then you heard the noises.
Both you and Bob took one look at each other before heading out back into the living space. “Guys?!”
Through the elevator doors, Yelena hobbled through with Bucky by her side. They all looked like hell.
“What the hell happened?”
Ava and Alexei took the semi-conscious Bucky from Yelena and rushed him down the hallway. Yelena tried her best to keep your focus on her. “Hey, it’s okay. He’s gonna be okay.”
“What the hell happened, Yelena?”
Beside you, Bob’s focus remained on the blonde Russian. “Are you okay?”
She nodded, knowingly taking Bob’s hand in her other one. “We ran into a few hurdles.”
“I thought this was meant to be a search and rescue.”
“It was,” she nodded. “But apparently Sam and the others also got wind of it. They’ve taken some bruises home, too.” Yelena was quick to add her next sentence. “Not from us. Well, mostly not from us. The search and rescue was tied to a hostage situation.”
“So,” your head kept turning to the hallway Bucky had been taken down. “So what-”
“A kinetic energy blast.”
Yelena saw the fire in your eyes. “Sam- Sam did this?”
Yelena shook her head, then nodded. “No. Well, kinda. But it was- Bucky was helping him. Sam thought he was clear of the blast. So did we.”
“I need to see him.”
Yelena let you go and Bob stepped into your place. “Yelena,” his finger traced over her brow. “You’re hurt.”
“I’m okay, Bob. I’m okay.” Yelena took his other hand in hers before resting her head against his. Then she hugged him.
Meanwhile, you ran down the hall and into the medical wing where Ava and Alexei had Bucky. He seemed a little more awake.
“I’m okay-”
You hugged him immediately. Somewhere behind you, Alexei made a soft noise and Ava hit his gut.
“Wilson said he’d be sending a medical officer over.”
“I don’t need one-”
“Yes you do,” you cut in before looking at Ava. “Yes, he does. Where are the medical supplies?”
“Doll, if you can fix me-”
“I still want someone checking you over.”
As Bucky agreed and the others left, John brought you the medical kits and left you and Bucky to it.
“He didn’t mean it, Y/n.”
You swallowed. “I know. Yelena said.”
“Look at me?”
You eventually stopped cleaning one of his cuts to look at him. He smiled for a moment. “I’m okay. We both know I’ve been through worse.”
You tilted your head. Too soon.
“They were helping us, and we were helping them. It’s not much but it’s a start. Maybe I can call him. He might actually pick-”
Bucky’s talking was cut off by your lips crashing into his. The only thought going around in your head as he was talking was that you could have lost him. Sam and the others might not have been there, Bucky and the others could have been outnumbered, and you might never have seen him again.
Yelena was right. The only people you were hurting were yourselves.
Once Bucky had come out of his trance, he looked at you, his fingers absentmindedly running through the ends of your hair. “What was that for?”
“I don’t want to ignore us anymore.”
“What made you change-”
“I could have lost you,” you spat the truth out. “And I don’t want to lose you and not have you with me in the first place. I love you.”
“I love you, too.” Bucky admitted. Then a glint came across his eyes. “I should get hurt more often.”
“Absolutely not.”
Bucky chuckled before cupping his hand against your head. “So…we’re not ignoring it anymore?”
You shook your head. “Nope.”
“Good.”
Pulling you closer to him, he kissed you like he’d been dying to for years.