Over worrying #68557
I have another worry. Don't worry. I'll tag them "over worrying". This is therapeutic. Grad school is overwhelming at times. I for one don't feel like I know enough, which I s so common. We all talk about how we almost quit the program daily.... But right now there is a conference and I wish I could socialize more, but it's in my city. So I'm not actually excused from anything. I still have to teach an take classes, and I have to travel back and forth from the conference. I also have a grant due this weekend. XD It's overwhelming. My boss and another grad student were going out last night with some other people in the field and I wanted to go, but I also didn't. I had some work to catch up on and I didn't want to walk across the city at night as a women, hang out and drink with the guys club (where everyone is also ten years older than me at least... I felt it would be awkward and unrelatable...) Of course walking back across the city at 1am or getting a ride from someone drinking also didn't want to do, so I declined. But I feel bad. Like I think my lab and field has a different culture from me in many ways, which is okay with me but I don't know if it for other people. Mainly I have trouble opening up to other people to begin with. I just don't want it to hurt my career or give me an aneurism. Okay. That might be all my complaints for today... We'll see.