There you are, you venomous alchemist
With your glowing eyes full of sunlight.
Your words a caress on the ears, adding warmth to the soul like a simmered meal.
You've brought relief to the hopeless and famined.
Only for you to change faster than a baby that didn't know any better,
You know you do, yet you play the hand that you don't...crippled by indecisiveness.
You stand for peace, love, and care on the broken leg of a stool, you're rocking back and forth.
The current right before the storm.
You were supposed to be the umbrella.
You were supposed to love and be loved.
But look at you now. Stare at the portrait you wanted and created.
A mix of jagged rocks with the scent of cinnamon and nutmeg.
How could you be honorable when you rupture with your words from the inside out?
You deceive worst than the eldest snake...your venom decoded as syrup bringing a slow death like you were controlling the pace with your finger, killing them softly with your song?
Look in the mirror. How do you call yourself authentic when you decieve even yourself with the narrative you weren't brave enough to follow.
Your love is a lie. Your passion fabricated to make others feel better and for what end? You destroy them with your goodness, and you're left to drink the poison you left for them...because you're thirsty for the love you don't know....for the love you thought you desired but had no idea that with love comes a choice...
A choice to do the right thing...to speak with vulnerability. To follow standards and traditions. To stop running from a fear you created.
Look in the mirror and charm yourself for once. Sip that poison. Inhale that narrative of the sad lonely boy that just wanted love...and when he had it he ran from it to another. A coward in a man's body.
You knew better...you know better...and yet you hold the remnants of all the hearts you broke, including your own.
This is your bitter end, to stare and reflect. To express all their pain to yourself. To remind yourself of how cold you have been. Apologize to the ears that no longer hear you. To the eyes that no longer smile when they see your picture or see what you have to say.
This is the price you pay for being the bad guy purposely, in a lover's story...
Remember that the sword through your chest was always yours