Jun 11, 2014
tipsy-cats-pajamas said: eyyyy lmao im roxy
Nice t'meet ya, Roxy. How are ya?
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tipsy-cats-pajamas said: eyyyy lmao im roxy
Nice t'meet ya, Roxy. How are ya?
'Ey there. Name's Koto an'welcome t'whatever you'd call this.
here i go to givve sleepin quarters to the little guy
did i hear someone talkin about a little grub needin a coon
ari has one she greww out a i can givve you
that sounds a tad irrational, dontcha think?
nevermind--
theyre such unruly house guests.
too late.
theyre staying.
...S9 this is my 1000th p9st.
6y n9w, I was expecting t9 have 6ec9me a 6it m9re 9f a use t9 this c9mmunity. I was expecting t9 have had riveting c9nversati9ns with strangers 9n t9pics 9f s9cial justice and the changes that need t9 6e made in s9ciety.
Instead, I l99k 6ack, and see a l9t 9f self-pity, l9neliness, and issues in my 9wn life. Vents a69ut my father, my m9ther, my sch99l life, and everything else that is h9rrid and misunderstanding in my life.
And I see friends. Pe9ple wh9 st99d up f9r me, even if they aren't here n9w. Pe9ple wh9 w9uld speak t9 me when I was l9w, w9uld questi9n my health, my sanity. Even the infam9us grey faces w9uld help me 9ut every s9 9ften, including finding me my team 9f preci9us p9kem9n that have helped me thr9ugh a l9t.
S9 I've 6een thinking... Perhaps this wasn't s9 much 9f a 6l9g t9 help 9thers, 6ut 9ne t9 help myself? It seems as th9ugh it's g9ne that way, and I was simply telling myself I will make a difference as an excuse t9 n9t feel s9 awful a69ut asking f9r help. I've never 6een taught that asking f9r help when y9u need it is accepta6le, especially fr9m a G9d I have 6etrayed simply f9r 6eing me. I d9n't kn9w h9w t9 l99k 9ut f9r myself. Even when 9thers 9ffer help, I get weary and 6ack d9wn, with9ut accepting.
Perhaps this was a way 9f me su6c9nsci9usly trying t9 train myself that hiding away my pr96lems isn't g9ing t9 fix anything? That writing in a diary w9n't help 6ring me 9ut 9f my situati9n? May6e, just may6e, y9u all have 6ec9me my diary, 9f s9rts. My friends, and dare I say it, my family.
...What I'm trying t9 say here, is... Thank y9u, every9ne, f9r helping me thr9ugh these c9nfusing times. I'm s9 glad I made this 6l9g, even if I'm currently in a 6ad place, 6ecause if I hadn't, I d9n't kn9w if I w9uld have lived this l9ng.
S9 thank y9u. S9, s9 much.
...I'll st9p talking n9w, haha.
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