today’s my 21st birthday (March 13th). I haven’t slept in a day and a half. I hurt my back really bad trying to get up this morning. my dad invited me out to lunch, i had to say no because of my injury and because i’m so tired i wouldn’t have been able to be engaged or enjoy it at all. then i cried because i felt sad that i wouldn’t be able to celebrate and enjoy my birthday how i would’ve liked, and because my dad seemed so enthusiastic about the whole thing and i had to say no. my mom wasn’t able to come visit me, she promised she’d facetime me today and she hasn’t, she hasn’t spoken to me since being a jerk this morning after i expressed frustration with being deeply sleep deprived. i wasn’t able to shower, clean my room or wash my sheets like i planned to so i could at least ATTEMPT to enjoy my day, so i’m stuck feeling icky in my depression pit. my best friend forgot, i’m PMS-ing, i didn’t get to have any plans with my friends. i’ve had two birthday parties in my whole life that i actually could remember, i wanted to really celebrate and enjoy this birthday because 21 is a big deal, if you’re an american anyway. and the whole thing has been a nightmare. i’ve bed-bound, crying, in pain and trying to sleep all day. i’ll never have another chance at my 21st. i’m so heartbroken. i just want wanted to be happy and have fun. and once again i’m sorry for coming into your inbox being negative and whatnot but i’m just really upset and your page is always a safe place to hang out. thanks for listening, sending you my love :,) <3 -tjw
tj i am sending you the biggest warmest hug ever rn. i’m so sorry your birthday was like that, you didn’t deserve to have a day like that anyway, but esp not on your special day >;( i also very much hope that your back is feeling a bit better now and that your mother is being a lot nicer to you. sending you absolutely all of my love 💗💗💗💗💗💗