Hey everyone. I don’t normally make posts like this, but…this just needs to be said or else I’m not gonna get anywhere with anything, so…I’m just gonna say it now: Life has been……extremely rough. Not based on events that happened currently, but…things I realized that have been going on for ages and it’s really hard for me to say what’s going on. I’m scared to make this kind of post in fear of being caught because if I’m caught, it could be the end of everything for my future, so I’m just going to come out and say it. I’m not going to explain every single detail as there are some things that I am not comfortable sharing, but this is the most I can share
My home life was never really the best. I have two sisters and my mom and dad, but…my mom and dad haven’t been the best example of good. It took me a lot of courage to realize that they were the reason I was never really happy with them. Their behaviors toward me have been pretty ableist and emotionally abusive. Saying I grew out of autism and that I don’t have it anymore, being unsupportive of my dream to be an actress and saying I’m not pretty enough to be an actress, harmful comments on my appearance, and overall just not understanding that I am neurodivergent and it feels like they’re trying to normalize me. All of this is mostly my dad, but my mom usually just agrees with him without hesitation and usually plays victim when we are in an argument. My dad has never been physical too often, but sometimes he has and the last time he was, it caused me to have quite a bit of anxiety and trauma from it
Despite being an adult, I’m still held back on my own decisions such as choosing what I want to do with my future (was forced to go to college for a major I never wanted) and having to use their credit card instead of getting my own and making my own online purchases
As of a couple months ago, I have been working on trying to leave this household and be independent, but things have just been extremely tough. I have been working on plans to create an ACGGoods store and a GoFundMe to get funds so I can leave my household, but I haven’t been able to get it since I have no money to get my own credit card and am not allowed to put debit cards online. I’ve been endlessly doing a job hunt for the past two months, but I haven’t been lucky. I’ve applied for 28 jobs and have received 5 rejections whilst the rest have been ghosting me or are too recent to be replied to. I wanted to ask people who either have a digital card, an ACGGoods store, a GoFundMe, or any of the above to help me out and how I will be able to do all of this independently secret as my father has control over my current phone and can take it away at any time meaning if I am caught with these financial decisions or am caught sharing this post, I will never be allowed to touch a technological device ever again which will result in my dream of being an actress crushed and needing to suffer enormous college debt as he said he will take my laptop away and tell me I need to find a new way to do my homework despite majority of my college work being online and I am paying for the remaining years of my college
I would love to have reblogs on, but one day I might regret making this, so I’m keeping reblogs off
If you want to support me, just keep engaging with the stuff I create. I’m not asking for money or anything. If you want to support me during this dark time, just continue engaging in things I create
And again, if anyone has any financial advice, please let me know because I want to know how to get out of here as soon as possible
Thank you. I love you all /p 💚🖤❤️
-TLG88