#to be deleted eventually

[heartsbreaking-migrated]

every fuckin day i fight with the two wolves inside me

one is 'people have a right to dictate their own media consumption and interactions with it' and the other one is 'people who refuse to engage in media with problematic themes and who make judgements about people's morals based on the fact that they watch or write something need serious touching grass time'

[frayededges-archived]

nico’s negativity corner (let me be im in the throes of being a burnt out lil bitch)

i have been grindin, working so hard at school that like i really don’t have time to talk to people like at all and the writing i do is mostly queued. but my drafts are piling up on my blogs because i just don’t have the time or energy to do long stuff.

but like i’m at this point where i just don’t know what the point is. cause i don’t feel like any of my blogs are enough and i don’t think i’m good enough. cause it’s not enough just to write and be left alone. like thats not how tumblr works. and i look at my friends and my mutuals who get unprompted starters and have hella dynamics and make each other edits and i just want to give up cause that’s not my reality and in a way i feel like it can’t be. because i KNOW that if i want that i have to initiate it but i have so many trust issues and so much anxiety that tells me if i put the effort in like that, and really devote my time to people in that way our friendship will crumble like it did with [redacted] and [redacted]. like being a kind of distant friend is so much easier because if something happens it won’t hurt as bad, but it doesn’t make ME feel good and i feel bad cause i want to show off my friends and love them fully and obnoxiously. that’s the kind of person i am. but if i get hurt again i really do think it would break me. and so it’s hard to put in 110% effort when i feel like that’s going to be the catalyst for what makes me lose all my closest friends

but then i feel inadequate cause i don’t have the types of dynamics i see on the dash and it’s so fucking DUMB because i have the power to change that but i can’t because im so scared.

and i have to tell myself that it’s the stress and the exhaustion thats making me think more about this and feel worse about this, but i don’t feel good and sometimes i want to leave so it’s just not a problem anymore.

it’s like i can’t ask people to love me the way i want to be love and give me 110% effort if i’m not even capable of letting myself give that kind of effort. and its just a cycle and im aware of it but for the life of me i can’t break it so i sit here in this bitterness and jealousy knowing if i stew in it im going to make something worse than what im scared of happening. but there’s NOTHING i can do about it because my mind is against me. i hate it.

[poppet-catherine]

x

Heads up! Married women can wear tiaras to the party tonight.

[shishouss-blog]

Following spree!!

My dash is pretty dead and for some reason finding new blogs is difficult? So reblog if you post things from these fandoms and I’ll check out your blog!

Haikyuu!! 

Kuroko no basket 

Soul Eater 

Osomatsu-san 

Boku no Hero Academia 

Made in Abyss 

Gintama 

Naruto/Boruto 

Mob psycho 100 

One Punch Man 

Pokemon (Anime or games)

Ao No Exorcist 

Voltron 

Anime/Manga in general 

Bonus: 

you’re a gif/gfx maker 

we can be mutuals (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧ (following me is definitely not necessary for me to follow you, but I enjoy meeting new people~) 

Thanks & have a nice day! I would appreciate if current mutuals could reblog this too ♡

[ask-svt-hearteu]

my lovely followers-

do you think, you guys, would be interested in buying some albums from me? i have many albums for other groups that are just sitting in my bookshelf and would receive a lot more love if someone else had them! plus i figured it’d be a plus for anyone who wants a certain photo card!

of course they’ve been opened so they definitely won’t be as expensive as they actually are!

i’m just going to say it’ll be the price i charge + shipping and because of that i’m sorry but it’ll be best if it’s anyone in the USA as international shipping is expensive

strikethrough: sold

albums: 

- BTS; IN THE MOOD FOR LOVE PT.1 {pink} ; Taehyung Photocards

- BTS; IN THE MOOD FOR LOVE PT.2 {blue} ; Namjoon Photocard

- GOT7; Flight Log - Departure {serenity} ; Youngjae Photocard + Jackson & Jaebuem Phototicket

- MONSTA X; RUSH {secret} ; Hyungwon Photocard

- SHINEE; Married to the Music; Onew Photocard (I realize the sensitivity and i’m sorry, i just think someone would love it much more than me)

- VIXX LR; Beautiful Liar; (message me for details)

MESSAGE ME @bloatedboo to discuss pricing & details! - admin seri

[snowball-with-knives]

Good afternoon!

//Good afternoon my lovlies, I have missed you. I am so glad to see you all still active, still writing, and still here on my dash. There are so many memes and asks I want to do, but I am reminding myself to get back into things one step at a time! Auntie Grandma Anthy wants to know if:

you remembered to take your meds today?

you remembered to take your vitamins?

Did you stop and get yourself a nice big glass of water at least once?

Have you taken a pause in replies, studying, cleaning, bills and life to get up and walk around and stretch?

have you been told today that you are an amazing person with unlimited imagination and you are loved and worth it and there are people here so glad to see you post?

Remember to take a break on yourself today. <3 Hopefully I will get around to doing some srs replies soon!

[ohshanksno]

Prepare yourselves....y'all thought Ace was bad?? Hahahah well don't worry Sabo will join him soon c:

[chimericlunarmagi-blog]

//Hey guys just letting you know I'll be back in a couple days! The hotel I've been at sadly didn't have good enough wifi to allow me to rp so I've been on discord only.