#to joy

[foalskin]

head full of dreams that burn like phosphorus

richard hell, "evening prayer"

[ozu-teapot]

Till glädje (To Joy) | Ingmar Bergman | 1950

Erland Josephson, Stig Olin

[thepeakygurl]

Dearest Joy,

I have been thinking a lot about you, about us. I was stupid and it costs me to admit so, but it would costs me much more to let you go. Know that I never meant everything I said to you, those horrible words that eagerly left my mouth, I never meant them. My deepest fears were always to bring you harm and now that I did, I can not forgive myself.

To love is a thing I never thought I would be able to do, but you taught me that there is nothing I can not achieve. So I promise to be better, for you and for me. I always imagined my life as lonely as my mother’s despite having so many people around, but I can not now imagine such a thing, now that I had a taste of a life with you. Watching you cry because of me, because of what I did to you, haunts me every night since. I tried to talk to you, I tried to approach you, but you are pushing me away and I understand. I do. I hope that on your part, you will understand that I will not give up so easily. Therefore, as a first amendment I left you a canvas and some new brushes in your room. Your friend helped, thank her for me again. I recall you telling me how much you missed painting and I miss your art as well. Do no get my words wrong, I am not trying to buy you back, I am just trying to demonstrate that I care. Also, you looked stunning today, I wish I could tell you those words in person. Hopefully you will allow me to do so soon.

Always yours,

Blaise Zabini.

[palatinewolfsblog]

Stars and Sparks (for my sweet Muse Kitty)...

[masumcetin]

yazı orda geçirdik kışa gerek kalmadı safça acemice şarkılar söylendi oyunlar oynandı sözde sevinçler haline getirildi yıllanmış hüzünler aşklar unutuldu ve bazılarına yeniden başlandı

      “insan yaşlandıkça kurtulur” demiş birisi korkudan belki yılgınlıktan ve başka bir şeylerden

oysa yaşlandıkça bulunur mavinin en iyisi akasya çürür tren hızlanır eller ufalır gibi kim yitirir sözgelimi bir başkasının bulduğunu evet kim yitirir kim bulur herhangi bir akşam alacası değil ki bu

Turgut Uyar, Büyük Saat s.577 “Ekinoks” Fotoğraflar: Ingmar Bergman’ın 1950 yapımı, “To Joy” (Neşeye Doğru) filminden, (Maj-Britt Nilsson & Birger Malmsten & Victor Sjöström).

[firstclassmovies]

TO JOY (1950). Ingmar Bergman directs Stig Olin and Maj-Britt Nilsson in a romantic drama of violinists whose marriage leads to conflict.

[foalskin]

words are for those with promises to keep

w.h. auden, "their lonely betters"