Fall in love.
I fell in love, and I mean that in the most literal sense.
As time went I couldn’t imagine my life without that man and it scared me, so I let him go. After 2 days I missed him, my life was so bright things I found boring were finally the highlight of my life I felt good about myself and everything around me with him, but now nothing.
So I did the logical thing, I texted him and he came back. I have never met someone like him someone I never got tired of listening too, someone I would eat cereal on the couch and talk about everything that happened in all the time of my life when he wasn’t there.
As guessed I fell more in love, months went on and everyday I fell harder and harder. He loved me, and I loved him.
We ending up breaking up, and it was the saddest most awful moment I have ever experienced.
After living for together so long it wasn’t normal not to see each other so we met up to grab a coffee. I didn’t make it out of the car, I saw him and I felt everything all over again.
“I’m sorry” he looked over at me.
“For what?” I respond tears already filling my eyes.
“You loved me more than I ever been loved. You care about me, and I’ve never had that. I’ve never had you.”
I start crying not knowing what to say, all I could think was why did you leave me than. I got sick I couldn’t eat or sleep without him. As crazy as that sounds he was my safe place, he gave me this sense of comfort and home that I’ve ever experienced.
“It’s okay.” I said between sobbing and blowing my nose.
I went home that night and realized it really was okay. He taught me what love was, he showed me all the beautiful things, the ugly things, and everything in between. I realized I am worth loving through all things, that even the things I hate about myself are so beautiful to others, that sometimes it’s worth the risk.
Loving someone is a gamble, you never know what your gonna get. But let me tell you is it ever worth it.