#tonightaalive

[vivalacobra]

new wonder years song???!!!! i had not heard of this what is it called om g

cigarettes and saints look it up pal its on their youtube channel!! be warned have tissues at the ready

[gayisnotasynonymforjalex]

tonightaalive replied to your post: omg you know what I remember when I fi...

same omg that was my life

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fucking sAME

unite

[tonightaalive]

Yesterday, I was lucky enough to meet Tonight Alive, one of my favourite bands in the entire world, at Warped Tour in Sydney. That band means a great deal to me, and to meet them? Quite literally a dream come true.

Now, most people who follow me would know I spend a large percentage of my time thinking and talking about Jenna McDougall. She's my celebrity crush, absolutely she is. But on top of that, I look up to her a great deal, and her and the band have helped me through a lot, especially in this past year. 

I knew I was meeting the band at their signing, so I came prepared. I brought this ring, and when I walked up to her, I said "Jenna can I ask you a question?" she said sure, so I got down on one knee and asked her to marry me, dollar ring in hand. It was incredibly lame, but as you can see in the photo, she is wearing on her left hand, so I guess it worked. 

Honestly this just gave me more opportunity to talk to her, we talked about the ring which she said she loved, and she asked my name, and I then handed her the piece of paper in the last photo. She read it, kind of said "Wow." to herself, and got up and hugged me tight. "Take care of yourself, okay?" 

On the day of that tweet, I almost relapsed. For personal reasons that I'd rather not share, that was a very hard day for me, and I was ready to give up on my fight against self harm. I couldn't bear it anymore, I craved the blade so bad and I couldn't handle that day all by myself. But when I read that post it really encouraged me to keep going, to fight on. It helped me knock some sense into myself, to realise it wouldn't help me at all.

But that feeling didn't last too long, and my urge was overpowering it. But then I received a tweet, I discovered she had indeed seen what I had said, and she encouraged me further. Knowing I had her support saved me that day from doing something very stupid, and has kept me going ever since. I know that a lot of people didn't like that tumblr post she made, many people thought she was rude and got angry over what Jenna said, but it helped me a lot. Without that post, and without that tweet, I would have relapsed that day. But i didn't. Jenna stopped me from hurting myself that day, and has helped me every day since. And guess what? That was day 33. Today? Day two hundred and fifty eight. I've made it so far, at this point I can safely say I will never go back to that life. I'm free. I know that without Jenna being there for me that day, I wouldn't be, if I'd relapsed one more time I know I couldn't have tried to quit again any time soon, I'd still be stuck in that trap to this day. Jenna helped me save myself from self harm, she got me out of that trap. Without her I certainly wouldn't be where I am today, and for that I am everlastingly grateful.

Anyway, I then gave her a letter telling her about all she's done for me, which is a heck of a lot and it filled 4 pages, when condensed. She said she'd read it, and I'm hoping that's true. 

I was shaking the whole time, I've never been so nervous. As soon as I walked away I realised how dizzy I was, my entire body was tingling and I felt as if I would faint. It took me a while to even process what happened, I looked again at the tweet she signed and started crying so much. It suddenly hit me that I'd finally done it, I'd finally met her and let her know that she means a lot to me and I'm so so grateful I got that opportunity. Yesterday was one of the happiest days of my life, I will never ever forget it. 

This was all really poorly written but I don't know how to express in words what this girl means to me, I'd be completely lost without her and I'm so so thankful I finally got the chance to meet her. I'm so happy. Jenna McDougall has personally changed my life for the better, and I finally got to meet her.

[yourultravioletdisguise]

i was tagged and apparently that means i gotta answer some questions and so do you

Rules:

always post the rules.  answer the questions of the person who tagged you. then write 11 new ones.  tag 11 people.  let them know you tagged them

My questions

1. what hogwarts house were you sorted into and do you agree?

how the frick do you get sorted into a hogwarts house i wanna know that'd be awesome

2. whats one band/ artist that you’d kill to see?

just one?! okay the maine. fo shizzle

3. what time of day do you feel most creative during?

probably at night. i feel like mornings are good for studying but i cant study at night so maybe its like a brain clock where my creativity comes out at night

4. if you could be a were-anything what would you be (like werewolf)?

WERE PENGUIN

5. Whats your favorite disney female character?

oooh thats a tough one. probably belle. from beauty and the beast

6. do people from irl know/ have your tumblr?

yeah katy, tobias, kenzie, reagan and freya all do. i think more of my irl friends unfollowed me lol

7. whats your favorite outfit?

i love dressing up so its probably a dress. im in love with this blue flowery one i got from dotti for the summer so maybe that one

8. if you could have any super power what would you want?

power to fly

9. if you could be in any movie what movie would you be in?

another tough one hmmm maybe the social network because andrew garfields in that and hes cute 

10. what was your favorite childhood book?

i dont even remember wow umm maybe the bear hunt one? that was cool

11. what was your favorite show to watch as a kid?

pokemon and digimon and hamtaro and yugioh and dragon ball z and all the cool shows that dont come on tv any more

QUESTIONS FOR YOU WOOO

1. BEST TOUR LINE UP?

2. FAVOURITE QUOTE?

3. WHY IS YOUR FAVOURITE BAND YOUR FAVOURITE BAND?

4. FAVOURITE MOVIE?

5. FAVOURITE FOOD?

6. IF YOU HAD $1 MILLION DOLLARS BUT ONLY 1 WEEK TO LIVE WHAT WOULD YOU DO?

7. WHERE DO YOU WANT TO TRAVEL TO THE MOST?

8. FIRST CONCERT?

9. IF YOU COULD RID THE WORLD OF ONE THING, WHAT WOULD IT BE?

10. FAVOURITE ANIMAL?

11. FIRST THING THAT CATCHES YOUR EYE ABOUT SOMEONE ELSE?

[somynameischristian]

mia seems like she's been doing really well lately like she's feeling good and things are alright and that makes me really happy bc she's been through some rough stuff before love u mia

[tonightaalive]

ill-paintyouwings —-> tonightaalive

ill-paintyouwings —-> tonightaalive