#too loud

[chiikawagifs]

[vivziepoparchives]

Viv provided the character design of C*Lacious from Too Loud. Posted to twitter June 9, 2018.

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[crooked-wasteland]

Was reading your post regarding Alastor, and what do you mean Viv actually worked in a show? An actual show? Not one of her own things?? I've never heard of that! I'm genuine curious!

Well shit. This is how I find out Medrano scrubbed her IMDB.

But yes, Medrano did other work before she made anything. Most were YouTube videos but she did actually have a single job as Character designer on a studio show called Too Loud in 2017. It was a DreamWorksTV series. While it is removed from HER IMDB, she is credited in the full cast of the Series (Too Loud Show) IMDB. But you have to scroll a while.

That is her only studio- backed job she ever had. Everything else she worked on was a YouTube series. But it is also the one show that has no Wikipedia page. It was so unpopular, it doesn't even have a Wikipedia page.

Speaking of, all her previous work is still listed on Wikipedia. People who use IMDB manage their own credits so if they don't want to be associated with a project, they do not have to list it there. But Wikipedia functions more like an archive and removing information that is otherwise true is not allowed.

That is her underdog story. She did one professional grade series as a beginner character designer before calling it quits and focusing only on making her own show while being supported by her parents.

[adhd-community]

do you ever stop feeling like you’re too much? i’m 19 and have always, my whole life, felt like i’m too loud, too messy, too forgetful, too hasty, too obnoxious… you name it. does that feeling ever go away?

Does it go away?

Oof. Honestly, I dont think so. Self-doubt of any variety rarely just vanishes as we get older. Mostly it lessens or just rebrands (e.g. "I'm too old"). I'm in my mid-30s and I still get hit with feeling "too much"... but it is definitely better than it was for me at 19! I think mostly because I have learnt ways of working with my patterns of negative self-thinking through therapy etc, and also because I have worked on surrounding myself with people who don't make me feel like I'm a pain.

In terms of the negative self talk - I have some starter info and advice for you below based on my own journey with this recurrant thought.

Dealing with the feeling that "I'm too much"

... starts with understanding the thought process.

When you feel this way, you are likely collecting examples of awkward or uncomfortable moments in your mind and labelling them as "things that happen because I am built wrong".

So to get to this thought "I'm too much" your brain has to:

Perceive a situation as awkward or "bad"

Decide that this was a Big Problem with Big Consequences that needs to be worked on - not just a one-off, forgettable moment ("They probably hate me now")

Conclude that YOUR ACTIONS are to blame for the situation, and compare your actions against a hypothetical ideal ("It's my fault - if I had just done x, it would have been fine! Others would have done it correctly.")

Globalised the thought by saying that it's not just this one situation - it's all situations you have been in ("I always do this")

Made it personal to YOU, not just your actions (e.g. "I am 'too much' as a person. I am difficult to be around.")

Thats a lot of steps to take from the initial moment that started the thought process!

The important thing here is not to just take the conclusion "I'm too much" as fact and letting it eat away at us. We need to recognise the thinking, pause, and go back through the thought process, skeptically questioning each step.

E.g. "Do I KNOW it was awkward/ difficult for the other person, or am I just assuming? Is it as bad as I feel like it is or have I made it bigger in my mind?" etc

This is a habit and the more you do it, the more 'automatic' it gets.

When I am having an especially hard time with it, here are some things I find it helpful to remind myself of:

Social situations can be weird and awkward and uncomfortable. That's normal and that's okay. It doesn't mean you did anything wrong.

ALL people forget things, make hasty decisions they regret etc. We are just hyper aware of it because we know it's more likely to happen to us and so we put much more pressure on ourselves to avoid these situations. It's okay to just shrug, say "oh well", and move on sometimes.

No-one has ever fallen in love with someone and said "I don't know what it was about them... I guess they were just really good at not forgetting things - it set my heart alight." You are so much more than a single skill or trait.

People like different things. YOU see these traits as negative but others may see "loud" as life of the party, "hasty" as spontaneous, and "obnoxious" as fun and entertaining.

You don't need to be a different person in order to be liked - I don't know who said it first but "if someone feels like you're too much, they can go find someone less"

[ecstarry]

i just saw a video that said “maybe we’re better at wanting each other than having each other” im going to throw up now

[daisyducklover2021]

PLAY THE MUSIC!

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[bloomingvice]

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