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making tumblr my personal diary because I'm feeling chaotic
Silence
How do you tell someone that not hearing from them or that their silence hurts you without sounding completely selfish? I know we all have our lives and things happen that take us away, if only momentarily, from friends etc. But how do you walk that line with wanting to reach out, to communicate without sounding completely selfish? There’s only so many times I can ask, “are you ok?” There’s only so many messages I can send with no response before I start to feel foolish and I get angry with myself for my own need of communication.
I am that friend that gets concerned that gets worried that frets over you if you do not respond even though I know that probably everything is OK I still want that response from you. And at the same time my need for that response makes me feel selfish, makes me worry that I’ll push you away if I ask too many times or message you too many times. Do you get it? I do it out of pure love and concern but there’s so much mixed up with that on my end. It tears me up inside, shreds my insides to bloody ribbons.
You always come back but sometimes I fear you may not that something will happen and then nothing.
What if i not enough? What if i can't do this better? What if i fall and everybody will laughing?
#inktoberday18 I was a bit burnout-y today, so I did a piece that required less thinking. I know it looks like a lot of work when I do that kind of level of detail, but I used a texture I used in a previous piece, because I enjoyed it and it puts my mind to rest for a bit. My hand goes to automatic and my brain can just shut down for a moment. It's nice.... Hope you're all doing good :) . . . . . . . #inktober #inktober18 #inktober2017 #myriamtillson #inkdrawing #enoughthinking #burnout #handdrawn #blackpen #indiaink #metaphorical #imagery #darkimagery #darkthemes #whatsinmyhead #toomuchthinking #myart #darkart #needtorest #traditionalart #surrealillustration #surrealism
...if what we have is less than perfect, we should learn to accept that life is constituted in a way that forbids everlasting perfection. And that's probably for the best.
http://mymisanthropicweek.blogspot.co.at/2017/03/philosexual-wednesday-days-to-come.html
Where there is true love, there can be strong hate. Where there is trust, doubt can be seeded. Admiration and adoration can, sometimes easily, be turned into resentment and scorn.
http://mymisanthropicweek.blogspot.co.at/2017/03/philosexual-wednesday-days-to-come.html
When I woke up this morning, I felt slightely disoriented. My clothes were soaking in sweat and my throat felt kind of rough. Once I got out of bed, my vision blurred and my head felt like it was drowning in stinging nettle. I wasn't in the mood for breakfast. To be honest, just the thought of it made me gag. What am I supposed to do with this day? I asked myself. It's for naught. Like many days before. And, almost certainly, like many days to come.
Do not look for it. It is enough to find out. Time to take actions. . . . PERSISTENCE . . . #penillustration #handdrawn #nosketch #drawthisinyourstyle #toomuchthinking #illustration (Calgary, Alberta에서) https://www.instagram.com/p/ClX_6yrLncN/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=