"Ephemeral Memory" c.2021 acrylic on canvasboard, 12"×16" I have a bad memory, but it wasn't always that way. I developed schizophrenia in high school and had my first psychotic break at 18. I wasn't medicated for another year, but as soon as medication started, my memory became faulty. It was always sharp before. Schizophrenia, the meds for schizophrenia, and other factors cause problems with my short term memory. In 2010 I had a bad reaction to an antipsychotic and had to be put on an anti-Parkinson's med called Cogentin which effectively erased all memory of that whole year. I don't know how much emphasis MH advocacy puts on memory loss and short-term memory loss, but I do wish more research was devoted to it. For the painting, the eyes are sightless, some lines that are normally sharp are blurred (like a haze of inaccurate memories). The wind represents thoughts being tossed around, lost. #ephemeral #amnesia #forgotten #newpainting #ethereal #art #surrealism #visionaryart #igartist #originalart #mentalhealthawareness #whatitfeelslike #blind #limitedpalette #hazy #windy #tossedaround #memory #blur #confusion #forgetful #schizophrenia #metaphor #surrealart #darkart #darksurrealism #darkartists #outsiderart #gone #creepy https://www.instagram.com/p/CN-u8ZMJXQH/?igshid=1v1kx131htrhi
