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Hi, sorry to bother you but googling doesn't help. How did you take these photos where your hair seems to be floating around? I just get blurry pics when I try and throw it :D Maybe you could do a little tutorial on taking nice photos in general as you have experience in that? Of course when the whole house situation is over, good luck on that :)

Ahh there’s really no special trick to that I’m afraid. Camera with a fast shutter speed, plenty of light, and throwing your hair up in the air as the timer is about to go off and trying to get your arms out of frame in time. If that makes sense. Thats literally all I did lol. SO not a helpful answer, but thats all it is haha

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Hi, thought I'd see if anything has improved or are you feeling any better ? Love from a dedicated MAGpie 💗💗

Things have actually gotten a lot worse today.:( Like a LOT.

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I know that feel. October hasn't been off to a good start for me either. I hope it gets better for you.

You too!

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I'm sorry to hear about what happened. Maybe you can go move in with a friend or rent a house for a bit?

We’re trying to rent a house. Thats the whole problem. We’ve been applying for tonnes of houses for like a month and we’ve been turned down for every single one in favour of someone else. My dads is the only place we can stay right now. Its not a good situation. Everything is pretty hellish right now.

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Thank you! We all know as MAGpies that atm you're going through tough times and you, John and Jake STILL upload everyday , that's just fucking incredible so thank you for all the hard work and best of luck for the future 💖🎉

Thank you so much <3 Keeping our subscribers happy means a lot to us, especially because we know MAG is sort of an escape for a lot of people, especially younger people who are maybe being bullied at school or having a rough time, even if people can’t directly be with us, we’re still all just friends hanging out, and so many people have sent so many amazing messages telling us how much it means to them and the ways that it helps. Knowing all that, there’s no way we could just stop. I am super scared for the coming weeks because I have no idea how we’re going to record or where, but we’ll find a way. Its hard, but its worth it xxxx

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For what it's worth I am like 85% sure that that picture with the pillows was taken at walmart. It looks like the walmart price tags, and the signs in the background look more walmart design than target.

Yeahh, I figured as much. We don’t have one here. Or any store that does lots of cool Halloween stuff.:/ TK Maxx is about the only shop that has anything decent and their selection isn’t super huge.:C

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I was also like that, anything and everything would make me cry, whether I was happy,sad, angry or even annoyed I could only express it through crying. It was so embarrassing and no one would take me seriously but since I've been put on a low dose of fluoxetine I'm expressing my emotions a lot better, don't cry anymore and I can actually tell people how I feel without breaking down, maybe try discussing it with your doctor? Hope you get through this X

I’m glad its helped you, but as far as I’m concerned, Fluoxetine is the fucking devil and it completely ruined me. I don’t think I’ll ever be able to get my body back to the way it used to be now.:(

And as a result I’m too afraid to try any other antidepressants either.

Those kinda drugs affect everyone differently, unfortunately I was one of the unlucky ones.

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Oh man definitely not alone with the "non-sad crying" thing!! Talking to the doctor about birth control, cries. Talking to my mom about moving house, cries. Getting told I did something incorrect (no matter how insignificant/nonchalant), cries. Absolute nightmare, but definitely not unheard of! I hope things work out for you though love, sounds like you're in a tough spot xx

Haha yeah its so bizarre. I think one of the most annoying times I can remember was in school, for some reason one of the teachers had decided that I was most definitely depressed for some reason. I was not, I was 100% completely fine, but they took me aside one day and started asking if I was ok and blah blah and I’m like “...? Yeah? I’m fine?” but they kept like, pushing and being all sympathetic, and then like, I wasn’t even crying, but it was more a case of my eyes just leaking so of course this convinced them even more that I was depressed and I’m there like OMFG WHY I’M ACTUALLY FINE.

I can’t talk to anyone about anything or have anyone be concerned about me etc without my body being like “OH OH, THIS IS IT, THIS IS THE TIME TO CRY”