no because like yeah.. i know his hygiene Horrible when he first starts (it does improve ofc). i forgot to add this part but i know he's reusing his binders an obscene amount of times until it becomes a near biohazard. like he'd just pray each time the clean shirt he's wearing above it masks the smell and uses perfume to hide it even more
Pretransition Sonny wants to come out to Rafael and wants to talk about transitioning. Rafael suddenly tells Sonny that he could be a closeted gay man, so they might break up.
Sonny: Rafi...I got something to tell you.
Rafael: Me too.
Sonny: You first.
Rafael: I think I like men...
Sonny:
Sonny: ah
oh Yeah... i can definitely see this happening LMFAOO and like sonny himself has been SPIRALLINGGGGGG crazy thinking rafael wouldn't love him after he comes out and that they would have to immediately break up... or like when he starts testosterone and wonders if he'd start growing a beard and rafael is going to HATE IT (he likes it. thinks sonny's ugly facial hair is endearing)
i just posted this ask with some sprinkles of barisi which may tickle your fancy... but yeah i was also thinking about rafael supporting sonny through his transition and i know he would be the most supportive boyfriend ever. BUTTTTT rafael being rafael.... he's going to add disses into it like "you're smelling like a man... i mean that in an awful way btw i know you're figuring yourself out but you can still maintain proper hygiene, love!!!!!!"
Any non-nsfw trans man Sonny headcanons? Just out of curiosity 👀👀
this made me realise a lot of the trans headcanons i have here are mostly nsfw OOPSSS (no complains ofc i love that my anons encourage my freak) but yes!!! fun fun fun love this
but also... before i get into my headcanons below the cut, i just wanted to add: HAPPY PRIDE to my fellow trans friends‼️🙌🏳️⚧️ whether you are out or closeted, you definitely deserve all the love and support!!!!!! and that i hope you stay safe especially with whatever fucked up things is happening in this world 🫂 and here's to wishing for brighter days for all of us 🙏
- tbh my fav timeline for trans!sonny is like in his late teens because then it gets mixed with all the ANGST. like when you have a religious upbringing you tend to start questioning when you're older and especially once you get exposed to the Outside world
- was in HEAVYYYY DENIAL about him being trans. countless of prayers and breakdowns, desperately asking for the feelings to go away because it makes his life and relationships so much more complicated
- he started on low dose testosterone without telling any of his family members because he didn't know how to break the news. he's heard some bad things from people at church about transgender people so he's EXTRA worried how everyone would react to him coming out BUT he literally could not stand looking at himself without feeling insanely dysphoric.
- when his voice starts dropping noticably they ask him questions like "are you sick, kid? you got a cold?" and he's just like... "yeah...? 😀"
- he definitely had like BAD acne from starting testosterone at first but because he had so many sisters, they taught him how to take care of his skin.... so hence he doesn't have too many breakouts or scars
- also he SMELLS!!!!!! literally sooo damn stinky and it doesn't help that he gets stupidly sweaty. doesn't realise how bad it was until his sisters started pointing it out. only THEN does he start taking his hygiene seriously
- he does testosterone shots into his thigh but he's SO anxious about it. has a full proper routine that he follows strictly and keeps his stuff neatly in a case. his pain tolerance is low so he has to ice his thigh and warm up the testosterone vial to make it less painful. also, he buys kids plasters with like superheros, cool hotwheel cars or firefrucks on them as a small reward for being brave!!!!
- historically, he had more girlfriends (even pre-transition, he had always been bisexual). but only as he started to grow into himself and age, he started to date a few men but it never went well for him :-/ (UNTIL he meets rafael ofc xx rafael the best boyfriend ever)
- unfortunately, he dabbled into the pipeline of playing into the horrible cis straight man persona because he wanted to pass off as stealth for safety reasons. he had always wanted to be part of the justice system, but knew it's going to be TOUGH trying to blend in. this phase lasts for a LONG time because he got way too locked in...... but eventually he gets out of this Mindset (or at least... tries his best)
- buys those products CLEARLY just marketed to men's simple brains despite being horrible products.... like 2-in-1 shampoo, MENS facial wash, deodorant etc. and it's such a bad habit. when he gets together with rafael, rafael nearly collapses when he sees the products sonny uses in his bathroom....
- that early season 16 moustache was him trying to see if people would take him more seriously as a man with facial hair (the answer is no, obviously... because many people are not a fan of it. I AM THOUGH!!!!!!!!!!!!)
ALSO i had saved this tiktok i LOVEDDDD and usually leave a link to the actual video to give traffic to the original creator but i think they deleted their account because i couldn't find it <//33 but it's so good ugh it hit my feelings that i need you to also see it
Trans man Sonny, who is just so horny because he's on testosterone . Someone! Anyone! Fuck this man and lick his tdick!
PLEASE HE WOULD BE SOOO PATHETIC... like he starts wondering if he's going crazy because everything makes him think about sex. he gets turned on by the way his clothes (and packer) sits against his aching t dick. in bed, he humps his pillow and blankets. he starts buying sex toys and cums his brains out when he gets the ones that uses suction and flicks at his tiny lil dick. he fucks a dildo into his wet boy pussy while the other hand is around his mouth because he's been MOANING AND WHIMPERING SOOO LOUDLY. eventually he turns over in bed so he can bury his face into his pillow as he sobs, his hips thrusting down into the bed and matching his pace at which he's fucking the dildo into him.
bonus if he's actually a virgin and he's so fucking desperate that he considers one night stands and to cruise . but he's also afraid that he's going to catch some std or get pregnant from someone unreliable. and lastly, in my barisi goggles... rafael notices how OFF sonny has been lately and eventually realises why. gives him some friendly advice, or even better, a helping hand!!!! because what could be better than your mentor turned good friend that you trust the most in the world helping you lose your virginity, teaching you about sex and curing your horny disease
Rafael slurping and fingering Sonny's tdick, worshipping his top surgery scars by kissing them. Makes it even better if you imagine them getting together before Sonny realizes he's trans and comes out.
oooooooughhhhh..... sonny transitioning only after getting together rafael is truly a fun thing to explore imo. KDJWKFJEKJEE sonny being like "would you still love me :(" and rafael fights the biggest urge to ask if he's dumb but he's like "of course, love. always will." plus i like to think that sonny coming out made the most sense and puts sooo many things into perspective between them.
as he transitions though, sonny feels WEIRDD!!!! about these new changes that start happening to his body and he can't help but feel anxious and insecure. it doesn't help that he had always envied cis men dicks and wished he too had one. maybe rafael mistakenly makes a comment in passing how he likes men more anyway (when sonny was feeling down about transitioning), but sonny misconstrues it and compares how he's Different from most men.
how does rafael prove it? by exactly what anon said!!!!!!!!! rafael splays his Large hands across sonny's slender body, his fingers gently running across his scars and litters kisses ALLLL OVER his skin. rafael then worships sonny's t dick by kissing the tip before wrapping his lips around it to suck HARDD. rafael also pushes his tongue into sonny's hole and then runs his tongue upwards so he can rub it across the underside of sonny's lil dick <333 this simply knocks the wind out of sonny and he loses his MINDDDDD because he never thought he'd ever experience how it would be like to sucked off LIKE THAT and his gorgeous boyfriend does it so perfectly. bonus point: rafael ALSOOO jerks off sonny's bottom growth and coos at how sonny has gotten big enough to have his cock stroked too just like his eheeeehehehehehe
Rafael forcing down a cis Sonny's head to eat his pussy and slurp his tdick, taunting him that he can do better. He can even piss in his mouth a little, just to twist the knife.
Before pegging him, Rafael taunts Sonny's manhood, and even though he has a penis, he barely knows what to do with it. That thank goodness he has a real man like Rafa to show him how to use a cock. He can even let Sonny choose which dick to use.
oh this is SOOOO Gewd.... stupid little cis man sonny.... rafael's on his face, holding his head firmly against his t cock and pussy as he grinds himself onto his mouth. sonny's a WHOLE mess, his chin covered in his spit and rafael's slick. he's giving it his all, shoving his tongue inside of rafael's pussy and swirling it around... he's making obscene sounds, groaning while his mouth is so busy. PLUS, sonny's perfect nose would be pressed up just nicely against rafael's t dick. god.... i know this man goes CRAZY for boypussy and t cock!!!!!
so ofc i believe sonny got a big dick BUT i enjoy the idea of rafael STILL making fun of his cock and calling it small and useless. bonus points if he already accidentally came or he's wearing a pretty lil cock cage. and rafael showing him what is it like to be a REAL MAN? oh anon your mind.... rafael got sonny begging and crying to get fucked by his strap. yup yup... 10/10
t4t4t barba, carisi & rollins threesome. how would that happen?
how would that happen or what would happen during the threesome? 🧐 (ok this got WAY OUT OF HAND AND LONG so i'm just talking about the build up)
if we take their onscreen relationship dynamics at face value (even if i think that rafael and amanda SHOULD have been close friends at the very least because of their similarities), then sonny would be the one who initiates their first trio 'hang out' for drinks at his place. i see this happening during the events of sonny's law school or just after he passes the bar. sonny has already established friendships with both of them (ok more assumptious on barisi end, but i think it's reasonable considering they spent time alone together—bringing up a deleted barisi scene here—there's no way sonny wouldn't have had tried having random non-law related conversations with rafael).
anyway, as the three of them have appeared working together alone on cases, sonny would just one day drop the invite to the both of them. although rafael and amanda have known each other for awhile now, they aren't close. but fuck it, they like sonny enough and know how much their friendship means to him, and well. they did like the energy and sass the other person gave. eventually, this routine becomes a thing for them, unwinding together, playing card and board games (because i think sonny would also have those). and through all these conversations with each other, i think there's no way the three of them wouldn't have slipped some tidbit of themselves that imply the fact they're not cis (e.g. sonny telling a long story, but in one small unrelated line reveals that he was in his school's basketball team. but he has forgotten that in another occasion, he had mentioned there was ONLY a girls basketball team in his school). these small details are unmissable, considering the nature of their jobs requiring them to pick these small things up, and well, when you're trans you just have this sense ANYWAY.... but they won't mention it to each other. it's just something they think and speculate in their heads alone.
ok so... how do things get spicy? sexual tension build up. come on, the way rafael looked at amanda and sonny when he first met them in their respective first meetings... i'm sure the three find each other attractive. and like tbh, not sure if you do these with your friends, but i know me and my friends love to have active discussions about our sex lives and preferences... LMFAO. so i think they just start yapping about this while being tipsy and learn WAYYY too much info about each other, which then turns them on and feel even more attracted to each other. they artistically talk about it without revealing their transgenderism ofc. idk i just personally feel like these three would be stealth out of safety reasons in their jobs, you know. i think the threesome starts off as a joke. like they have kissed each other for the shits and giggles, because what homies don't kiss.... *eye twitching*
ok so the idea is that they were discussing about what they WANT to try in bed but haven't had the chance to. coincidentally, rafael and sonny mention about wanting to try a threesome IN GENERAL, as a concept. amanda, being the goddess she is, of course had one before. they egg amanda to share more about how it went and this only intrigues rafael and sonny EVEN more.
i like to think that amanda is the one who suggests it, saying something teasing like 'hmm i wonder what it would be like with two hot men instead...' while looking at them suggestively—because her prior threesome experience was with two women. in which rafael and sonny have their each internal panic, because shit.... now what. sure, they had their '🤨🏳️⚧️❓' moments towards each other, but unfortunately, you can never be certain on how someone would react to you coming out. so alas, it has to be finally addressed. feel like sonny would be the one who blurts out nervously like FUCKIHAVESOMETHINGTOTELLYOUGUYS .... and then finally drops the bomb and they're like oh.... so..... and then they finally come out to each other and there's an awkward moment of silence. until someone finally chimes: 'so... are we still doing this or nah?' and the subsequent 'fuck yes i'm down if you two are' '....into it even more than previously, i have to admit...'
and then they fuck and have the messiest freakiest sexiest hottest threesome. happily ever after 😍🙏
2. What would be the moment he went, "oh. I'm a man, actually."
3. Would he receive phallo or any other type of bottom surgery (funny af considering the first question but I had to get that out of the way lmao)
4. How would he come out to the squad and future partners? (barba/rollins or both.)
LDJSKFKWKF ANON asking me the important questions 😭 *noah centineo voice* sooooo... are you gonna show me how you squirt or what? HELP ok lets fucking go! 😁🏃♂️
1. ...creamer. aoughhthejkek idk man i don't have a valid explanation i just want to eat his creamy pussy out and see him coat rafael's cock and see it drip onto his balls SORYRYEDHEJKD
2. i think he's always been masculine growing up and wearing ugly clothes (I MEAN THIS AFFECTIONATELY BTW 😭 no hate like his clothes at the start when he first joined.. my god) and gets told like 'why are u being a boy' and he's just ??? but tries to argue that he's not bc he's a feminist and believes that women can present however they want. maybe he only realises he's actually a man in his teenage years and spending time with more guy peers, realising he's too much like them. and then he starts seeing more gay on gay men action on the internet and he's oh FUCKKK why do i feel more comfortable watching this.. maybe they've been right all this time i am a man...
3. he'd consider, but i think he'll only get it if technology and medicine has progressed enough to let him shoot cum out. like this man is so into the idea of breeding that he won't take anything less. i mean i know there's a way to like mimic it but he wants the Real deal. dude gets so jealous and envious seeing biological dicks being able to do it like i just know he gets off to guys just jerking their cocks bc he wishes it's his. like he's so obsessed with the cocks that if he had a cis boyfriend, he'll be sooooooo into touching it like a stim toy HELP
4. because i headcanon him to come out in his teenage years, he'll go stealth afterwards and believes people doesn't need to know about it. he fears getting treated differently and while he does respect women, i think he'll do things WRONG just so he can pass better (aka saying stupid misogynistic man comments just to get some approval and laughs).... *hits him with a stick*
i see him PANICKING. sure, at first when people start flirting and hitting on him, he'd just take it in a stride. but the moment it escalates like his potential partner giving him a teasing lewd comment alluding to him having a dick, he's like Oh Shit.... he'll then just break the news in a hurry. OR maybe he'll desperately try to drop hints along the way so he doesn't have to say it out loud. but in particular, i like to think that if his partners were either rollins/barba (whom i believe are both bisexual), they'd be attuned enough to pick up on it quickly. but they would also take extra steps to assure sonny that they still see him as a man (even if it includes making snide remarks to him about being an idiot handsome man, which ACTUALLY sonny enjoys very much). also like. barba and rollins would give sonny the sloppiest blowjob ever idc they'll have sonny gripping onto their hair for dear life
