#trans t

[ali-cias-love]

Hello sweetie

[another-delta-lover]

Some Ludwig doodles I made based on a comic made by @aji-molido

Powerpuff girls's dad jumpscare

[mangy-cur]

So I had my drains taken out yesterday and let me tell you that was flat out the worst experience of my life. Maybe I’ve been blessed with limited pain in my life but there is no experience quite like having 1/2cm tubes pulled out from your chest and feeling them dislodge beneath your skin. Painful, yes, nausea-inducing, hell yes.

Staples come out on Monday.

[mangy-cur]

I officially have facial hair from one sideburn to the next. It’s coming in quite thick I’m very pleased.

[mangy-cur]

Me three years ago vs. me today. We’ve come a long way, son.

[mangy-cur]

I've had a gc2b binder for about a week now amend it can honestly say that it's the best I've ever had. Underworks binders, which I've worn for the past 5 years, have done such a number on my back and lower ribs that even when I'm not wearing it I'm in pain. The lack of tightness around your back is just such an improvement. Definitely recommend.

[mangy-cur]

I feel frayed. I can't sleep and I need to be awake in a few hours. I've had shit night sleeps for the past week. A whole Mrs of issues with my HRT recently. Got caked in to the practise this morning so that the administrator could tell me that it was an accident that I'd been registered. Technically, I shouldn't be able to get any NHS help until I've been here for six months. Whoever approved me obviously wasn't thinking. I'd thank them if I could. She didn't want to help me, but we argued with her. I can't wait months and months to see a gif clinic, I don't have that much medication left. I've already halved my dosage to cope with the wait, but even then I've only got a month. Less now. I was free for months. I felt good for the first time in years. I've just started to really notice changes, and now I have to stop. I feel furious, depressed, irate. I want to break things. It's a slope, and it's been less than a week since I learned how long I'll need to wait. I can't sleep, the tension is making my back ache. God I miss my chiropractor.

[localtattooedloser]

gender is???

idk. trans day of visibility is great and i’m really loving all the love and support i’m seeing. but it’s just drawing so much attention to these feelings i’ve been trying to suppress and suppress and suppress and just

ah ah AHH

what is a woman anyway? idek. i keep having this nagging feeling that i might be nonbinary, but the little stupid fucker in the back of my head keeps telling me that my tits are too big to identify as anything but woman, and my pronouns are she/her/hers, so i can’t be nonbinary, and i’m just ~going thru a phase~

i just want to KNOW. i want someone to spell it out in big block letters and plaster it on my bedroom walls so i just know. what. gender. i. am. meant. to. be.

fuck this body. fuck this society. fuck binaries.

~dysphoria~