let the rain
Today it was raining. I don't really have any umbrellas that don't suck, so I just decided to drive and wear my rain coat.
But then I decided to walk instead of driving every single place I went. It was a little cool, but not too cold. It was raining, but it wasn't pouring or drizzling. It was steady rain and it was so beautiful. I didn't put on my hood, and once I took off my glasses, I enjoyed it so much. I saw a flock of tiny sparrows fly up through the trees. I saw a cardinal flitting about in the grass. The birds were all chirping so cheerily.
Then I realized, this is what it's like to be fully alive, to be present in every moment. I wasn't worried about tomorrow, I wasn't worried about the future and all that's stored up in these next few weeks, I was just alive in that moment. It was transcendent. By enjoying and living in that moment, I was empowering myself for a transcendent future. For me, attaining that transcendent future is living in the moment and being truly present. Then I know I will always be joyful, and it won't matter where I'm going next.
Everyday I do this is a day I choose me and conquer what used to be my greatest fear.