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they call me guy who might get testosterone soon!!!!!!
felt it was important to upload something today, im trans and proud <3
intro post
my names max (^-^)
im 7teen
from scotland
im trans and go by he/him
interests: music, movies, art, yaoi, fashion, buttons, games and animals (specifically goats, sharks, dogs and monkeys)
dni: very creepy old men, racists, homophobes, etc
i dont know much else of what to say, this is a boy blog and i will post just about anything !!
very happy to make friends
more about me below !!
Apparently I don't have POTS. Tilt Table Test came back negative bc my blood pressure did drop unfortunately. So I saw my PCP and he was genuinely confused on what the next steps should be (he is a newer doctor, hasn't been out of residency long but he is very open about gaps in his knowledge and is very excited to learn still!) so after discussing again that my symptoms started LONG before I started testosterone or ADHD medications he still wants me to try and get a sooner appt for the endocrinologist (I have one scheduled for DECEMBER) to see about lowering my dose or even just doing a better hormone panel to see if planned parenthood has been doing this properly.
Either way my therapist and psychiatrist both brought up Ehlers Danlos Syndrome which my friend probably has (diagnosed hypermobile, working on seeing a rheumatologist) . But I am not hypermobile (I don't think I least) and I also don't have stretchy skin (again as far as I know) so I am quite frustrated but I see my Dr again at the end of the month and hopefully he will have some better information.
I hate the medical systems
Transphobia is lame, go kiss ur local cuntboy.
Went shopping, Tell me I look great okiee? >.<
My bra strap was visible, so your boy had to add emojis lol
Man I'm struggling with my gender again boooooo. Identify as transmasc/transman for like 6 years. Unfortunately i didn't socially transition but i was called by those pronouns by my therapist and some online friends. It did felt nice but i still had so many identity crisis.
Now for the first time I'm considering she/her pronouns. At first i thought it was hormonal changes or suppressing myself. I got on antidepressants and I'm starting to feel way more aligned with my gender and i mostly want to date women and be a wife. Like i genuinely feel like a pretty girl or lady. The thing is it sounds weird in my head. Sometimes it sounds good but like I'm so used to my set of pronouns. I went to a gender affirming therapist recently and they told that this happens sometimes. Gender change overtime and ebbs/flows. Never had i heard that. I thought once you're trans or enby? You'll be like that for the rest of your life and dysphoric barely goes away. what about the past 6 years? What was that?? What about being anxious of using she/her pronouns more? Why am i beginning to like my deadname? Why do i strongly dislike looking like a man and why do i feel jealous over older black lesbians or older women getting the second puberty and being themselves. I mean i always had discomfort about it. Now this bad. I hate genderrrrr. Honestly glad for ssri, i actually like myself and took selfies today. Made me realize how much self hatred i had for 25 years