#transition mtf

[letherselfgrow]

Can't believe I used to look like that.

[my-journey-of-transition]

What this is

I’ve tried to start so many blogs in the past. Write about games. Write about comics. But I would always lose interest. Run out of time. But this is different. Because rather than being about traits of me...this is about who I am as a person. This is about a lived experience, and about experiences still to come. 

I am transgender. For 34 and a half years of my life, I lived as the gender I was assigned at birth, male. But for years, honestly for most of my life, I’ve had questions about that. I’ve had questions about who I really was. Most of my friends were girls. I didn’t like to go out and party like all the boys in my class. I was quiet, a bookworm, a gamer. I was also born with a birth defect. A cleft lip and palete. Essentially, my upper lip did not form completely in the womb. I had many surgeries as a child to close my lip, to help with complications that came from having this, and to normalize my look as much as possible. 

If anyone knows kids, especially playground bullies, you know that it is easy for bullies to spot our insecurities. Its even easier when the insecurity is physical. So I tried to hide. I tried to slip into the background, not be seen. If I wasn’t seen, I wasn’t a threat. If I wasn’t a threat, I’d be left alone...

This blog is going to serve a couple purposes. First, on 12/29/2021 will be a new birthday. That date will be the day that Carlie is truly born, and the day I’ll be leaving Curtis behind. That day, I will start HRT to become who I’ve felt like for so long. This blog will document my journey with HRT. Secondly, this blog will serve as a way for me to show that, even when things are really difficult and we struggle, that there is a light at the end of the tunnel regardless of how dark it can be. 

I hope that my words can give hope somewhere, and that you are able to get the help that you want and need. 

[xxroguevalkyriexx]

My doctor appointment!

Had my doctor appointment the other day about hopefully starting hormones. And of course the VA is going to drag it's feet. But they are the only ones I can go through for my hormones since I do not have health insurance. They say it probably won't be till the end of January now. I told them a month ago the reason for my visit. And my doctor didn't start doing any research till the day if my appointment. URGHHH!!!

[xxroguevalkyriexx]

This is an important document (click on link to go to download it) to help with your transition and what “should” be accepted. Every state and country is different, please keep that in mind.

[pleasantexample]

HOLY SHIT EVERYONE I BOUGHT MYSELF SOME SAW PALMETTO AND PUERARIA MIFICA  FOR THOSE WHO DON'T KNOW THAT'S BASICALLY MONES WITHOUT PRESCRIPTION AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA SO EXCITED