ftm illi means rhe world to me because yeah hes just a boy hes just trying to fit in and despite beinf post transition and seeming "normal" everyone still picks on him and hes not accepted because god forbid a trans guy be confident and loud and androgynous. hes messy and nerdy and he still paints his nails because expression has no gender and he doesnt do swim because they wont let him on the boys team but hed beat them too if he had the chance. the school makes him keep his hair long but he still finds a way to wear pants even if they dont match the uniform. his friends and his brother will love him always and he helps rhem deal with being outcasts because hes used to it. illi is living life post-transition in that weird stage where he knows who he is, but the world around him is still catching up