@trescharmant , “ no one made me. i made me. “
there was a lot to admire about philippe de lorraine. the way he seemed to COMMAND A ROOM being among them. it was the first thing alec had noticed about him. all eyes had gravitated towards the blonde designer moments before they first met, his own gaze following suit and unable to waver. at the time it seemed a miracle that alec was the face philippe chose amongst a crowd. they haven’t known each other long and yet he cannot already imagine life without the other in it, in any capacity. friend, lover, perhaps more. their relationship still evolving with alec eager to see where it will end up.
the party of one of philippe’s designer friends continues inside, whilst they have made their way out onto a balcony. conversation between them far easier than it was with anyone else. words fall like breath. if the other requested that alec lay his soul bare, he would. it was both exhilarating and terrifying knowing what power philippe was gaining over him. things were light and flirtatious for awhile. their fingertips ending up intertwined between sentences. then the conversation took a turn towards something more serious. FAMILY & PERSONAL HISTORY [ ... ] the lightwoods were anything but perfect, but alec knew his family would always have his back. even through the rough patches. when asked about his family, it didn’t seem like philippe shared that same sentiment.
the question already lingers in the air. it was too late to take it back, but he wishes that he could. maybe this was all too soon? perhaps they should keep things between them light. maybe this would never go BEYOND FLIRTATION, even if he wanted it to. alec is patient and when answer is given, doesn’t even think to push for elaboration. it wasn’t his business, right? “ i’m sorry i shouldn’t have asked. “ the hand that doesn’t continue to hold onto philippe’s runs through raven locks, shaking his hair nervously. “ that is one of the things that i admire and noticed about you. your strength. not everyone has it. and, you know, i like who you are. who you’ve made yourself to be. a lot. “






