#treynation

[theyallbowdown]

July 31st, 2012 - "Induction"

Wait a minute let me skate up in it. 

Today Brittani came up to me and told me that Raggedy Ann, Aleiah, and Helen were talking about her, of course, I knew the last two weren't involved. It bothers me that the Lame Gang always pick on her knowing she isn't going to say anything back. That's not even cool. A wish a bitch woulda told me to turn around. I wish I wish I wish I wish I wish a bitch wouuuuuuuulllllllllllllllllllddddddd. 

Somebody got lucky, Good thing Diane and Katie reminded me where I was cuz Trey was bout to sho nuff pop off like ,i mean , it aint even nothinggggg! I knew I shoulda waited by that car. 

I'm still in the trap tho. 

Team Amazing > Lame Gang. 

Mann my mouf was numb for most of the ceremony from my dentist appointment lol!! I truly felt that my lip was sagging. And those kidsss mann it was hilarious. You could tell that some of them were super nervous. They were trying to run across the stage lol. I kept laughing whenever they didnt wanna shake hands. 

Find yourself in a recycle bin. 

[theyallbowdown]

July 5th , 2012 - "Archived Book"

Vacation was great but not really what I care to talk about. 

I'm currently drowning in a river of my own feelings, a current of doubt and misunderstanding pushes me to the brink, but the present has saved me. I've let so many in, gave them my secrets and admiration. Made them who they are. But now we share not even a whisper. Maybe its for the best, I dare not venture back outside, walls are here for a reason. Love has become hate, compassion has become mutual disdain. I guess you could my farm go so big, so abnormally big, that I couldn't sustain it all. I lost a few crops while often focusing on seasonal ones. They never were meant to last. So while many acres have perished, I still have more acreage than most. For that, I should be thankful. 

When I leave this place, I'll carry only memories as water in palms. And the place shall stay in me. 

But creatures evolve and adapt, correct? If so, my environment has made me into this...entity..someone with great power. I was so unrefined as a freshman, but lo and behold, pressure truly does make diamonds. And when a diamond is around, everything else seems to sparkle.

Now rest your head on a pillow of hope. 

[theyallbowdown]

Beating a Dead Horse

Beating a dead horse is an action or speech that has no purpose, because no matter how hard or how long you beat a dead horse, it is not going to get up and run. 

I often wonder why my life and the people in it have changed drastically over the past few months. It took me alot of thinking hours, but I've finally realized where my fault was in all the drama that occurred. So I'll just start off with, "I wish" (NO GIFS)

I wish I was more supportive of Racheal and her relationship with Fred. Although he was ugly as fuck, I think we would be in a better place if I had done what I was supposed to do as a friend. But on the contrary, I felt that she held a grudge about it, especially after it was over and done with. Rafael and MJ had things to say about Racheal as well, but if people choose to be fake and deceptive, that is their decision. I've brushed it off as we are now two different people with two diffferent mindsets, in two different places in life. 

I wish I had gotten to know different people over the year. I gave my all to people who didn't really reciprocate that. 

As far as Sam and Rafael, I just think that things got taken out of proportion. It was weird because I was friends with both of them first, then well whatever. Uhmmmmm...idk. I feel that everyone made it seem as though I had this huge problem with them dating, but in reality, i didn't care. He was my apple scrapple, and I felt that he was not being a good friend.He let her come in between his friendships. MJ said the same , but of course, let's just make it seem like Trey's the only person who feels this way. Actually, although she lied and twisted things quite a few times, I feel least hostile towards her out of everyone. I was 100% real, which was my fault, maybe i should tone it down to 90. All I know is that if someone is using me or two-timing me, my friends better let a nigga know. 

As for Laura, I wish I talked to her less. I was not suprised that she was talking shit about me, and that should have been the first red flag. Although she admitted to it, she gave no apology or explanation. Why wasn't she executed?? We don't do that here, Vlad. Pity. 

Lol. My only fault with MJ was letting her hurt me as many times as she did. I was stupid for trying to be with someone who had better things to do. I caught her in lies, and she'll never know it. I'm just not talking to her until I feel that I can be "just friends". But she lacked at that too. #POW

I've often thought about just sitting down and talking things out, but this is not about to be "Pin the blame on the Trey". In some ways they have  hurt me and not known it, but I'm sure I have hurt them as well. I can't really even say as much as I wanted to say because you're reading this. And I know things make other people reconsider things. Hmm. This is my 90%. But someone will read this, and take it the wrong way  and bitch about it, I'm sure. And won't say shit to me. In that case, Don't fuckin read my shit.