TW for sh! / A few days ago me and my boyfriend had a big fight because I fell asleep without telling him and he got worried and mad. After I got up he told me he was mad at me. I haven't cut since march, but this made me relapse since I felt like I had to punish myself. After I woke up he said sorry and that he regretted it. And now I'm looking for some self harm positivity, since I feel so bad for struggling with this. And that's it for tricky tuesday.
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hey anon,
first of all, thank you for opening up about something so personal about yourself and sharing it to a platform of strangers how tricky your day had been! I’m so proud of you for coming forward with this story even though it was a hard one.
I’m sorry to hear that you relapsed but please don’t punish yourself for something you didn’t intend to do on purpose. You fell asleep by accident but that must have been because you were really exhausted or tired. It’s not your fault and I think as long as both of you have talked it out, you guys should be okay. I’m sorry to hear that you’re struggling but you could try and open up to your bf and tell him that this fight you guys had triggered you to start harming yourself again and see if he could be more understanding towards you and the situation a little more next time. When I first tried to self harm, my ex wasn’t able to stop me because we were doing long distance and he was never physically next to me to stop me from harming myself but my current bf who knows of my past self harming behaviours (even though I’ve stopped now) wouldn’t allow any sharp objects near me without him around. Although I could use a pair of scissors without the thought of harming myself now, it’s the thought that counts and it really makes a difference when you notice that your love one cares. I really hope you will be okay, please take care of yourself 🥺
