Feb 2, 2021
#trigger warnings!!!#like the terrorist attack has its own wikipedia page and i was on that train i was the last person on the train with the victim#i will never unsee the waterfall of his blood on his white dress shirt i will never get his blood out of my shoes no matter how hard i scrub#also hints at how poor i am that ive had the same shoes for almost 4 years#and im just expected to go about my life as if im normal with no trauma?? unbelievable#anyway been thinkin about trauma a lot and how i need to finally unpack it with an equipped therapist once i get better insurance/income#what a wild life i have had ive been to so many places and kissed so many people and experienced so much trauma and illness and here i am#fighting a pandemic frontline in a hospital and administering vaccines to people for school hours when im not at work#grateful for where i am now and excited for what's to come#anyway just sitting here in my beautiful vintage lingerie thinkin about things instead ofdoing homework#diary
