#trigger: depression

[cero-tia]

It's hard to find things to post here anymore. I can't draw, it seems, because I'm exhausted after work with this new weird schedule, so I don't have any new art to share. I lose my attention span too quickly to take many screenshots, and I don't like mods, so I don't have fun game pics. I can't even bring myself to search for aesthetic pictures for Cero because I just do not care, it seems.

I'm sad all the time and I can't get my feet under me, despite the good things I have in my life. I feel more alone than ever and I loathe how I feel like the answer to that is to withdraw further. I'm scared I'm making people forget me because I'm too quiet and isolated and that makes me cry myself to sleep some nights. The world is fucked up and I don't have anywhere to talk about it except this blog, sorry. You don't have to pay attention, I just feel like I'll die inside if I can't vent it somewhere, sometimes.

[hp-unhappily-ever-after]

Title: Threads

Author: @sweetmusingswrites​

Characters: Draco Malfoy, Hermione Granger, Gilderoy Lockhart.

Pairings: Hermione Granger/Draco Malfoy.

Rating: Teen and Up Audiences (I don't feel that this time it warranted a mature rating, if you feel it does, I can change it to Mature).

Prompt: GEN11 - Janus Thickey ward, from the view of the patients. How they see their daily lives. For example: How do the Longbottoms see the world around them after their torture. Bonus if there is a part for Lockhart.

Tags/warnings: Minor Original Character(s), Memory Loss, Memory Alteration, Depression, References to Depression, Alternate Universe - Voldemort Wins, Deception, Minor Violence.

Summary: Draco wakes up in the Janus Thickey ward, uncertain of anything. What, if anything, will he discover during his time there?

Link: https://archiveofourown.org/works/21182510

Exerpt: The scent of that potion had made his hands feel clammy. Wiping them on his sheets, he closed his eyes for a moment. This had bought him to his next question; just where was he, then?

[darling-muses]

Kira felt the tears run down her cheeks, face buried in her knees. She was having one of her harder days, unable to stop thinking about how she had no one she could count on, no one that she could go to for help or to talk. She just felt empty and alone. She had tried messaging a few people with no responses, only making her feel worst. 

 She wasn't home, not wanting to worry her parents. Instead she was hiding out in an old tree house she had found in the woods close to her home. She didn't know who it belonged to, but at least it was somewhere to go. 

 She heard a noise, glancing up to see someone standing in the doorway, shying away and moving to the corner. "H-hello?"

[fantasyimagines]

List 10 good things that happened in 2016 (could be about you, the world, your friend, etc. as long as they are positive things) then tag 10 friends.

2016 was something…

Tagged by: the lovely @myteenwolf-world

The Harry Potter franchise continued with Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them <3

I started my first (and second) imagines blog

I was introduced to the Flash & Teen Wolf

I made some amazing friends on tumblr

I finally found some medication that actually works

I joined a wonderful roleplay ( @generationexaltera-rp ) and regained muse for hp roleplays

I co-created a roleplay ( @exercitushq ) with the lovely Ellen

My amazing friend found out she was pregnant!

I started to learn how to drive (after putting it off for over 6 years)

I accepted that I really do want to become what I dream of being, and no longer considered it to just be a fanciful dream

Tagging: @ellenhelpsrps, @capscanary, @maleficent265 ... I don’t know who to tag! If you would like me to tag you in these things in the future let me know!

[yostresswritinggirl]

Mom 😭😭

As a reader, I'm really happy for the protagonist because not only did she managed to atleast win against Depression, she also have great friends and family members that supports her through her dark times.

I'm crying 😭😭😭

- 🥗 Anon (Tart, ngl the submission is cute lol, even I almost fell in love with myself 😔)

The reason why I burnt the toast? Hahahaha....

Anyways-

The story is great and it also made me cry but unlike the others where the authors just said, "And they will live hand by hand from now and forever."

The author really included on how her life ended. It wasn't the life she imagined that is dark and alone but a life where she felt warmth and contentment. Honestly, it really touched me tbh.

Stories that tackle mental health and give them a really nice ending are a blessing, so long as they are done right anyways, but they are a really welcome change

oh gawd please i have ptsd with the word forever now, gosh dang it fanfiction

[thelovelybitten]

things I never say — 70

I’m having major anxiety right now bc I feel like I’m being pressured to do things that I know would benefit me but in my heart I really just. Don’t.

one of two things have happened recently, the girl I used to hate apologized to me and I was thankful for it, however it was kind of skimmed off a bit and she didn’t really admit to doing all these things to me but I let it slide. I told my friends about what happened and it seemed as if they were proud of me bc they didn’t want me to hate her anymore— thought I was in the wrong = liked her over me = wanted me to stop hating on her bc I was wrong and she wasn’t. It honestly makes me think that they don’t like me and like her so much more and that sucks... but it’s ok I guess.

I’m not saying I wasn’t in the wrong, but she’s not scot free either. It’s whatever I guess, my friends are happy and that’s all that really matters to me. and this half ass apology is better than no apology at all so I’ll take it.

The second thing thats literally making me go off the walls is this: so I’m moving out with my boyfriend in less than a week and he suggested I get a second job again (since McDonald’s isn’t giving me the hours I need but it’s a good job to keep) and I’m considering it but at the same time, my whole life motto is to have fun and keep smiling, I really can’t take more than 12 hours of work a day mentally and I’m afraid I won’t see anybody anymore.

So it’s been getting on my nerves when he mentions it bc I feel like it’ll be taking away all my own happiness just because it feels like he thinks I can’t handle myself on my own. News flash, I’ve been living alone for three years already I’m pretty sure I can handle myself. I’ll make that call if I need to make that call. For right now, I should be okay. I will get a second job when I need to get a second job.

Then his mom (who is an angel) starts messaging me about job opportunities near where I live and as much as I’m thankful she’s looking out for me, it’s ticking me right off.

It seems like everyone thinks I’m a failure, or I’m dumb, or I can’t do this, or puts me down and MAN IT REALLY HELPS MY SELF ESTEEM. it seems like I’m not good enough for everyone around me. Everyone thinks I’m a child. Everyone dislikes my opinions just because I’m me.

It feels like I’ll never be good enough for anyone, Sadly that includes my 12/10 boyfriend who is literally too perfect for me and I make him look bad. That’s how it’s been feeling lately with him and I feel like I’m actual garbage being next to him. I feel like I’m not carrying my weight. I’m so scared something bad is gonna happen and it’s going to be all my fault bc I can’t keep up with him and his successes. I also feel like my friends aren’t really my friends bc they get tired of me talking that they just want to shut me up. I’m like the runt of the litter that gets left in a wet shoebox in the middle of a downpour.

I am really alone. It hurts a lot. I just have all this pressure to keep up with everything around me and I don’t think I can do it at all. I just can’t.

Wish i didnt work tomorrow bc I would really like to drink all this pain away right now.

[fromthemindofsiri]

Depression is having the overwhelming urge to cry

But not knowing why... That's where I'm at right now.

[therealmaxtli]

someone come over with alcohol and let me get drunk and die lmao