#trouble studying

[its-just-a-hug]

Today I gave up, once again, on studying. Not having time for mental-health self-care during work time takes its price.

I wonder how bad the exam result will be.

And I wonder why I still keep going on like this, I think I'm actually pretty dumb.

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[madamwhynot]

11/3/2018 Masters

It’s pretty obvious I’ve been quiet about my writing/studying. I am having a hard time again coping with finishing Masters. It’s been hard...

After a long tearful talk with the boyfriend I am trying to promise myself to relax and do one thing at a time. If I don’t finish this until June, that’s ok. If I need to take time off after that, to really think about other things that also matter in life, then I will...

I feel very judged by my family when it comes to Masters’ Degree and I am having a bad time feeling guilty about wanting to take time off. I haven’t got the courage to say I need time. They’re the ones that wanted me to do this... I never did. So I’ll keep strong and as relaxed as possible until June, and then we’ll see what life will bring. I need to come home from work and not have this responsability. I need to think about the weekend as weekend and not as time-to-work-on-the-thesis. I need to do other stuff and explore new interests.

Still, I’m here. And I’ll continue to be. I have to trust that whatever is to come, I’ll be ok. My choices are only mine and my family shouldn’t be offended by them.