Aug 18, 2013
Dear you,
It’s been two days since we decided to cool things off for a while and it’s times like this when it hits me most. You know what broke my heart? It’s how easily you agreed to pausing our relationship first. I wish you had shown some kind of sign that you doubted this, that you were scared that you’d completely lose me, lose us. But you didn’t. And i hate feeling like this when I can’t tell whether you’re bluntly pushing me away or it’s just because you think this is what we both need.
Thing is, I can’t give this up but there’s only so much I can do. I’m on the end of my rope. Is feeling special too much to ask for in a relationship? Wasn’t that supposed to come naturally? Didn’t I deserve that?
Fuck, I hate this.