2:32 AM - Drabble
Warnings: cheating, somewhat toxic relationship, intrusive/self-deprecating thoughts, mentions of sex
Word count: 526
“You don’t love me!” You scream at your boyfriend with hurt coating your voice.
“Yes, I do! It was one mistake! Just let me explain…” Atsumu begged you.
Maybe you did something wrong for everything to end up this way. Maybe you were the issue. You should’ve done better, been more involved.
Well, whatever it was, you didn’t expect to be cheated on by your boyfriend, recently fiancé, since your second year of high school.
“No, Atsumu, you don’t. Because if you did, you would not have been in bed with someone else! What’s there to explain?” You screamed back at him.
No, you refuse to put negative thoughts in your head. You did everything right. You were supportive of his volleyball career while you sacrificed your own. You stayed by his side, came to his games, came home and made him food. You thought of your future when he didn’t.
“Get out.” You say to him.
“What?” Atsumu stared at you, panic filling his eyes at the realization of his mistake. Or maybe even mistakes. You don’t know.
“I said, get out. I can’t bear the sight of you right now. Leave.” You speak loudly, making sure your voice doesn’t falter to show your vulnerability.
“You can’t mean that...I live here too. C’mon babe, let’s talk this out. Please…” Atsumu continues trying to reason with you.
You look at him in disbelief. How could he say that after what he’s done? You can’t just beg your way for a relationship after destroying it in the first place.
You stared at Atsumu, noticing he wasn’t going to budge. “No, we can’t. You cheated on me, Miya,” Atsumu felt weird when his last name left your mouth. It was a stinging feeling in his heart when he heard it come from you, oddly enough. This is for real. “You know what? Fine, if you won’t leave, I will.”
Atsumu noticed you moving and quickly protested. He didn’t want to risk you getting hurt so late at night and figured it’s better he leave than you. “Wait! No, I’ll leave.”
A few moments later, Atsumu left you. This led you to some peace and quiet to your own thoughts.
Slowly by slowly, everything started to sink in. The argument, finding him in bed with another, him constantly hiding the fact he was cheating, the toxic behaviour both of you got accustomed to, the kind words he told you, his comfort, him. Everything.
You walked into your, or what was once your shared room, and over to your mirror and stared at someone you couldn’t recognize. This wasn’t you. Their hair was messy, mascara running down their face and red and puffy eyes. Is this how you always looked?
You thought back to how you acted in your relationship. You were no different from him. You were probably just as distant. Sometimes you did neglect him. You just never cheated, that was your only difference. You guess you can’t really figure he cheated, it was bound to happen with the way your relationship went.
Everything started to make sense. Your insecurities took over your mind along with the mistakes and holes that were once in your relationship.
Now, standing in front of the mirror, staring at yourself, you understand why.
Note: Hello loves! Here’s a litte angsty Atsumu drabble. I couldn’t think of any of character to do this on, so I settled for ‘Tsumu baby.
This is also poorly written and edited, so don’t mind it.
This was based on a Tiktok of opening and ending lines to use in a story and got inspired. For those who don’t understand, the final sentence refers to the first dialogue in from the drabble. I would show the Tiktok where I got the idea, but for some reason won’t let me upload. I’ve never written a drabble or time stamp before, so if there is an issue, please let me know and I will be happy to fix it! Also, this does contain self doubt and insecurities and I actually don’t like writing that kind of stuff and this somewhat makes no sense, but that’s the only way my brain worked to get the story to end that way. However, if you ever do feel this way, don’t be shy to let someone know, or DM me and I will gladly answer to help you out! You’re never alone and are valid.
Anyways, hope you enjoyed reading!