whos fault is it here, that's all I want to really know.
is it me
or is it them , people
the same level at which i overwhelm them , eventually at one time or another, until finally , suddenly they're gone, one after another, like clock work. it ticks all the same regardless the time or angle the joint handles form , their lengths and what they measure may differ, but really its all the same, how they function, move, and their sole use and purpose they share regardless of external conditions of the clock its self. ,,,
at that same level they each , if not honestly all , but optimistically I will say Most, turn me the fuck off not just from them but from humans in general, and more so human relationships. trust. wow i realize i literally have none.
just faith .
i hope it really is me just in a cold phase , a heartless healing phase, that i will and can get out of with time, either by my self ideally, or wishfully naively dreaming someone outttttt there , not even people, just one, someone out there actually might surprise me, or do the impossible and prove me so wrong i begin to heal by proof of contradiction.
lol lovely thought though... a girl can only wish lol
doubt it.
not only do i not really like people, specially in large quantities,
but i specially hate guys rn . lol ugh why are they so annoying and sware. they are literally 99% all the same haha . i see u , its just funny to me at this point. but really i hope the 1% exists for real. friends that are just friends or the love of my life but i ask for nothing in between pls.