"You were a milkman"
"And you...you were a ballerina"
I'm never recovering from this podcast sorry

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"You were a milkman"
"And you...you were a ballerina"
I'm never recovering from this podcast sorry
im so glad social media wasn't real in the silt verses so shrue was at least spared the indignity of being forced to do tiktok dances to promote tranquili-tea
Spoilers for: The Magnus Protocol S2, The Silt Verses S3, Hi Nay S1 Act 3
The Magnus Protocol, Episode 37: Scrutiny/The Silt Verses, Chapter 45: Of Love, And Gods' Defeat (Part 1)/ Hi Nay, Episode 30: The St Patrick's Case (Part 2)
THE SILT VERSES FINALE PART 1 SPOILERS‼‼‼‼ DONT LOOK IF YOU HAVENT LISTENED
im a broken woman. this is insane to me. carpenter and hayward are alive for now..... carpfaulk reunion rapidly approaching..... val and carons heart to heart.... VALLERINA........
i dont know what to do. take these sketches. maybe theyre wips. i dont know. im messed up.
i'm never not gonna be insane about carson as val's mother figure. like i do think that val started subconsciously thinking of him like that. all her rage at this unknown, unnamed woman that gave birth to her, all that rage was just as much directed at him. in a very real sense, he gave birth to the val that we're introduced to. the tortured and hateful battle saint. and i do think that by the end, he thought of her as a daughter of some sort too. at first, he must've thought of their dynamic as that of a manufacturer and a weapon; creator and creation; distant and removed from the pain his creation causes, just far enough away from her to avoid getting the blood she spills on his shoes. but he calls her a daughter. a daughter of the nation, sure, but a daughter nonetheless. and he's proud of her...but not enough to see her as a person. she's still just another medal on his wall, another grand success! and isn't that exactly what a bad mother does?
and their final scene together. val always wanted a chance to forgive her mother, to prove that she was better, more kindly, more merciful, despite the pain her mother had caused her. and i do think she did that, in her final act of mercy towards carson. "he doesn't deserve it. she says it anyways."
and in one last twist, carson reciprocates that kindness. something val would've never expected from her mother. "you were a ballerina," he says, giving her something she explicitly mentions her biological mother depriving her of. that simple act of kindness that doesn't do anything to erase the years of pain, doesn't do anything to heal the endless wounds, and that's such a difficult, quintessentially human situation. you don't have to forgive your mother. all she's doing is saying the words she should've been saying since you were born. you don't have to forgive her, and you won't forgive her, but you will feel the soft edges of a kinder life close in around you anyways.
anyways i'm going to go drown myself in a river now goodbye and good day
Val: What did you want to be, when you were small?
Carson:
What in the world are we going to do? Look at what everybody's going through What kind of world do you want it to be? Am I the future or the history?
the fact I spent the entirety of The Silt Verses hoping for carson to die JUST to cry at his death is so. Yall are EVIL