#tvbf

[thevioletbutterfly13]

I've come home!

[thevioletbutterfly13]

I try so hard and yet,

It seems like nothing...

     I do matters.

I feel like there must be something wrong with me.

I have to be the problem.

I’m not funny enough,

I’m not pretty enough,

I’m not smart enough.

I feel exhausted...

     and alone

[thevioletbutterfly13]

We had the cutest table this year. Usually one or all of us work on Thanksgiving, so it was nice to be able to sit down and eat together.

[thatgirlbubbles13]

Starting Anew

I am making this my new space. 

I love my old tumblr but it feels like I need something new.

I am not the person I was then.

[thevioletbutterfly13]

We just lost our five hundred dollar deposit because my father doesn't tell us shit. I wonder how much we’ve lost. Every dollar I had is gone.

[thevioletbutterfly13]

I honestly didn’t think I would reach this point but the pain of missing you is starting to ease.

[thevioletbutterfly13]

It’s snowing! Like really snowing! I am so happy!

[thevioletbutterfly13]

I’ve been slowly decorating my room, honestly I didn’t think I would still be in my parents house. Six months ago I thought I would be moving in with the man I was (am? idek anymore...) in love with. But back to the point; I am really liking the way it’s turning out. I also found my favorite HIM cd “Deep Shadows and Brilliant Highlights”, I thought I’d lost it like eight years ago and only had a digital copy left. So that made me really happy. I’m trying to appreciate the little things and forget about the bigs ones for the time being. One day at a time right?