we can't stop talking about sexualization of young girls, of models, of a perfect marriage/couple, you name it. not to mention same-sex relationships, etc. i'm not gonna rumble about it as you've already heard it all.
yeah, what's my point
sometimes i'm just tired. cynical on the other hand, you probably notice my url which is obviously, a reference to the pixies album but also my hidden point of view, i'm aware of a fact that you may not realize that but it has a meaning to me, that's all that matters really.
i'm tired of one kind of spiel and it makes me feel insecure and bad about myself in general, it really does. asexual? how do i plan to function in a healthy relationship if i don't want to satisfy my future loved one(s) the way every healthy human being needs to be. how do i plan to live this way for months and ages? how can i have fun with no use of my abilty to turn people on as a young woman? how do i want to keep myself alive nowadays?
i've heard all of these. questions, questions, speeches, speeches and i'm tired, i really am as i feel like i will never be good enough for anyone, i'm not worthy, i'm useless. i wish i could say not everything is about sex nowadays but i can't, sorry i can't, i wish i could tho.
(please remember that asexuality has multiple meanings and not every ace isn't keen on sex at all. i've just showed my situation, thanks).